Good night.
Jun. 17th, 2008 11:40 pmI saw a fox, in the creek bed past my back yard, the other day.
I keep meaning to tell you that.
What do you want, right now, more than anything?
Pretend the hour's getting late.
I keep meaning to tell you that.
What do you want, right now, more than anything?
Pretend the hour's getting late.
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Date: 2008-06-18 03:49 am (UTC)I want my laundry done.
I want a better job.
But what I want- more than anything- is him here with me in my city. The place I love. To see me glow and decide that this is still the magical place it was for us before and to stay here in the magic with me.
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Date: 2008-06-18 04:29 am (UTC)This is a Hard Question. First I:d say that I don:t want to have to worry about what job I:ll do when I get home, that I want a job waiting for me. But that:s not the ultimate goal. The ultimate goal in finding a job is financial security to live where I want, eat what I want, buy what I want, and still pay all of my bills. If I could do this without working, I might turn working into a hobby more than a necessity. I use to say that I would still work, even if I won the lottery, but now, I:m not so sure that would be true. There:s a lot of bullshit involved with work, other people, red tape, law suits, that I think I would much rather do without. So, then I:d say financial security to live where I want, eat what I want, buy what I want, and still pay all of my bills. But even then, that:s not the root of the problem. What all of those things are are things that make me happy. And even if I had all of those things, I might be unhappy. So what I really want is to be happy, without sacrificing my mental cognitive functions (IE: I don:t just wanna ba a happy idiot who is happy when the lights turn on). Is that a good answer?
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Date: 2008-06-18 12:33 pm (UTC)But you're right. He does sound like that kind of guy :)
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Date: 2008-06-18 11:54 am (UTC)Is it sad that this is the main thing I want? There are other things, but mostly, if I wanted them badly enough I would work to attain them. This is the one thing that I really want and can't entirely control.
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Date: 2008-06-18 12:58 pm (UTC)And I really want my family here! Which is going to be happening in a week (my parents) or two (my sister) anyway, but I'm having trouble with the whole patience thing.
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Date: 2008-06-18 01:14 pm (UTC)Me and
So many things can come, with patience, knowing which just tends to make us want them more. :\ Paradox.
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Date: 2008-06-18 04:51 pm (UTC)Alternately, I want not to want.
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Date: 2008-06-18 05:08 pm (UTC)I want out of debt.
I want to take off with my games.
... luckily, these last three I can do, if I can figure out how.
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Date: 2008-06-20 01:52 pm (UTC)replacing the Argo, you bastardwhether a person is the same person or not here.)I have a hard time with the 'you get what you want' modality because it's easy to fall into the mold of blaming the victim. I guess it helps to teach, since most people can't do it before they know how. So the self-destructive thoughts are a disease, of sorts.
Yes, that. I want to know how.
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Date: 2008-06-20 02:07 pm (UTC)And that's a good want...
can I want several things?
Date: 2008-06-18 11:08 pm (UTC)2. a tempurpedic mattress
3. pink sequin manolo blahnik maryjanes.
you heard me. pink. sequins.
:)
And maybe to have my hair brushed.
Re: can I want several things?
Date: 2008-06-19 02:23 am (UTC)And... Wow.
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Date: 2008-06-29 11:30 pm (UTC)The house to be totally rewired already. Like now. This very moment.
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