Project planning

[wolven7]

Those of you who responded to my earlier post, I still need something from you.

I need a list of your perceived personal weaknesses. And I'm not talking about bullshit weaknesses like "I try too hard," or "I'm a workaholic."

In what areas do you need actual improvement, self- or other?

Bleh. I need to go.

Comments

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

I'm bitchy, impatient, and judgmental.
I act like I don't give a damn what anyone else thinks of me, when I actually do (sometimes).
I'm self-centered and a bit entitled.
I lack tact.

Oh, and I'm really distractable sometimes.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Brilliant. Thank you, much.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

I am blunt to a fault. Subtle like a flamethrower. Can be arrogant and superior. Oddly reticent and avoidant despite (alongside?) these. Single-minded. Sometimes too focused on expedience and things working smoothly to remember there are others (and their feelings) involved. Impatient with things I'm not interested in. Often lacking in self-confidence, especially in my own intelligence and how I am seen.

Not a fan of cooking. Crap at more-than-bare-functional sewing. No musical talent, at all. Can't and am afraid to learn to drive. Easily cowed by certain authority, and made defensive by others. Not good with pretending I'm other than I'm not, whether it is fitting in somewhere I'm not used to, or simply smiling when I am somewhere I don't want to be. Not good with talking to strange and new people. Less so when I have to initiate.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[cailement.livejournal.com]

I:m scared of trying things that are outside of my happy sphere (note how I:m in Japan right now, so I AM working on this).

I:m scared of the things in the dark.

I need too much sleep, or else I:m very cranky and sometimes very stupid. My IQ actually drops dramatically when I:m without.

I get distracted by things I want to do and don:t always do the things that I know I should do.

I:m terrified of failing when other people are relying on me and it usually pushes me to try to be too perfect.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Hm. Thank you.

[tsarina-bomba.livejournal.com]

I'm a lazy, selfish person with major self esteem issues. I also have an addicting personality, not in that I'm fun to be around but that I get addicted to things easily.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Good. Thank you.

[salrushdy.livejournal.com]

all kind of trust issues

[wolven.livejournal.com]

You didn't list your strengths, yet, though.

[momentai.livejournal.com]

Sorry about that, but I thought you were reffering to a different earlier post.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Ah. I was wondering about that. Thanks for the clarification.

Hoo boy...

[raidingparty.livejournal.com]

Perfectly in line with the last list, to be honest.
-Efficiency and field marshal being being my positive qualities, an impatience with inefficiency and people unwilling to get with the program are the associated negatives.
-Arrogance. Not that anyone would ever guess. ;9
-Any of my "fear"-tagged entries. That's what happens on low sleep when I'm by myself, and sometimes even with others around.
-Tenacity. Not a bullshit answer, because it applies not only to good stuff (getting game published) but also stuff I probably should have given up a long time ago.
-In that vein, I have difficulty "just letting go" of dissonant information.
-Depression. Mild, at the moment.
-Media addiction. I have to read it all, see it all, absorb it all, including all the contradictory cut scenes from movies and the pulp Star Wars paperbacks. This is why I don't own a television or a video game system; I would never leave the house.
-Perfectionism; see previous efficiency drive, but take "time" out of the equation.
-Maudlinity as far as relationships go.
-Sloth, Lust, Envy, Pride, Greed. Wrath is relatively ignored, until such point as I kill somebody. Gluttony has been well taken care of.

Re: Hoo boy...

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the list.

[sadistic-apollo.livejournal.com]

I'm difficult to get a hold of in a public setting. i.e. I belong to all so I am owned by none.

I'll go through myself to get to the source of a problem. I have temporarily permanently ended friendships over important issues. (fortunatly I can repair most burnt bridges)

I can obsess over things.

i can cut things out of my life entirely.

Megolomania, but it's well deserved. I also fail at being humble. Not prideful, just not humble.

absolutely zero musical ability. I could barely march in school.

occasionally forget to eat or sleep.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

dragging my feet

[raoin.livejournal.com]

is actually one of my weaknesses.

so is being unwilling to talk about myself in the negative to others. dont get me wrong, i'll talk to myself all day about what i'm bad at, how i fail, why i fail, and so on. but when i get down to the actually telling of the tale i tend to swing wildly from defending myself to the point where i have no failings or weaknesses, to the point where i cant even be bothered to tell you because it must be obvious to you already.

other weaknesses. when i'm business i'm all business. i'm brusk, i'm to-the-point, i dont mince words, i dont care about feelings, and i only care about what is and isnt true. what isnt and isnt working. what needs to be done. this tends to rub people the wrong way. and i can see that it does, but i just cant stop myself. in my mind they ought to know that its business and not personal. and i try to be more gentle, but the result is that people think i am avoiding them, or that i have gotten distant.

i dont particularly dig working with people unless i'm the leader and i dont get any jockying from others about the position. i believe that i am open to suggestions and to inserted expertise from others, but if i'm leading the group, i am the leader that's final. i wouldnt have wanted to be the leader unless i was sure i could do the best job. i also wont sit idly by while some other person fucks things up, i'll step in and tell them so.

on the other hand, i enjoy working closely with someone else. if that person is my boss i will be the best assistant you have ever met. i can do anything. i mean it. if you tell me what it is you want and give me instructions on how to do it, i will get it done. i will even let my assisting you take over my whole life. which is in some respects why i have gotten so little work done on my masters this semester. i'll do condon's work over my own. so you could say that i am overly-loyal, selfless, and dogmatic in work situations.

so i could use some people work. some improvement in my ability to be social in business situations. i could use some work in what might be called "cooperative" or "democratic" situations. i could use some management work in defining clearly what time is mine and what time belongs to my superiors.

i tend to try to separate my personal life from my work life. i have depression problems. these have been more apparent as i try to blend my academic career with the rest of my life. there are days when i just wouldnt get out of bed unless i wasnt already afraid of letting others down. i'll sit listlessly in my room and stare at the carpet. or blankly at a computer screen. i wont get any work done because any work i produce is no good. and any problems i notice while feeling depressed will become huge issues, and i will obcess over them until i either decide they are unimportant or until i solve them. if i cant solve them i will feel worse about it.

Re: dragging my feet

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Nevermind, there they are.