What the fuck, man...3am, again...

[wolven7]

I (seemingly unlike many of you) am loving 2008, thus far. It is full of unexpected pleasantnesses, and unpleasantnesses that cause people to better themselves, via adaptation and boundary breaking.

I'm awake at 3.30am, again. Needing to sleep to get my shit together, for tomorrow... *sigh* I'm pretty fucking tired, though. A night of conversation and backrubs at the R. Thomas, too much caffeine (if there can be said to be such a thing) and a clarity that I'd just hoped was tangential and comparative to the fog, but is, in fact, not. It's the sharp fractal edged clarity of what promises to be a long night. Dreaming or trying to dream, sleeping or trying to sleep. I've work to do tomorrow, so I should get to that...

We'll see what becomes of it.

Comments

[liquidimage.livejournal.com]

YOUR AWAKE because of the combination platter.....thats weird.
ha ha

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Exactly... A lot of shit, all at once.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

I don't have a problem with 2008. My only problem is me, really. I mean, there are external stimuli, but isn't everyone's real problem themselves and the way they react to said stimuli?

2008 itself seems... not that different from 2007, so far. I suppose that if I want it to be different, I will have to make it that way. But really, I see most years as "full of unexpected pleasantnesses, and unpleasantnesses that cause people to better themselves, via adaptation and boundary breaking".

I'm up at 3:30 am a lot. I don't stay up until then--I go to bed at a normal time, then wake up at 3:30 and can't fall back asleep. It's annoying. And I love R. Thomas.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

It can be said, yes, that the stimulus response is the key, but the clarity of purpose and path on regards to figuring out the answers and Correct responses is not always easy. Sometimes figuring out which way to change is really quite difficult.

Every year can be that, if you approach it that way, but I think things have to show themselves in a way that you will be more like to Initially interpret in that light, before you can apply that rubric to the majority of things that come your way. I think that's why people place so much emphasis on the first experiences of "The New Year," and with whom it's spent; there's a kind of Sympathetic Magic we see to the First and the Rest.

When your year, day, week, month, lunch hour, or whatever other arbitrarily bounded piece of Time "starts" "badly," it becomes harder and harder to drag yourself out of that mode of thinking about it, the longer that kind of thing presents itself to you. (Curve - [My Tiled White Floor]). All the recognition of internal Stimulus/Response dynamics in the world won't help you until you've come to an actual Understanding of what you can do for yourself.

The wonderfully paradoxical thing about that is that the Understanding has to germinate and spread from the inside, but the impetus for it, the planting, as it were, can (and sometimes MUST) come from outside. That's where I find myself arrogant enough to come in, and where I'd be willing to bet you often find yourself: Pushing from the outside, gently nudging people to realise that they can change the way they interact with a situation, and trying to help them see how best to do that.

David Bowie - [Hallo Spaceboy]--- Posting this, and also expanding it.

You should come out to R Thomas with us, some time.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

All the recognition of internal Stimulus/Response dynamics in the world won't help you until you've come to an actual Understanding of what you can do for yourself.

True. Which is sort of how last year ended and this year seems to have started. Although maybe I'm getting there, but the journey is, um, character-building.

Heh. I'm not sure how "gentle" my nudging is, but I'm definitely in that nudging position pretty often. :D

...And I would love to come out to R. Thomas with you all some time!

[wolven.livejournal.com]

What time do you generally go to sleep and get up?

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, it varies wildly at this point. I usually wake up by 6 or 7 am at the latest, with or without an alarm. Sometimes I will be asleep by like 10 or 11 (I'm old!) and sometimes I am up until 3 or 3:30 am.

In all fairness, during the week, I am generally asleep by 1 am. But I have this "late shift" rotation deal at work, so one week out of every 5 or so, I work 11:30 am to 8 pm, and those nights I'm usually up later.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I ask because we generally don't even head out that way until 10.30 or 11, in the pm.

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

That's do-able, under some circumstances. Let me know sometime, and no promises, but I'll do my best. :D

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Absolutely. Email me your cell phone number and your last initial, as I know many people with your first name. :)

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

Okie, sent it... let me know if you don't see it.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Got it. Danke.

[cailement.livejournal.com]

I'm generally speaking as happy with 2008 as I was with 2007 as it's still moving me towards goals and places I want to be. And every new day is just ripe full of shiny possibility. But maybe that's just me being optimistic.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Optimism and cynicism wound together make a pretty serviceable realism, I've found :)

I am awesome

[raidingparty.livejournal.com]

I also might have crossed off the first one of my New Year's Resolutions in the first week. I'm not sure; I made it up by "60-mississippi", but I didn't know I had a stopwatch in my phone.

So in general, yes, this year is good times.

Re: I am awesome

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Very good.