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wolven7You could be in a domestic mood today, Wolven, and it might be a great day to focus on your more feminine side. Gourmet cook that you are, it might be fun to plan a special meal for that nice lady in your life. Go shopping at your favorite store to get all of the fixings. Then play some relaxing music, get out a bottle of wonderful wine, and whip up a great dinner.
And if i had any food, money, or time to get the people whop would appreciate it, together, then i would. Damn mocking bastards. Anyway. I reworked my understanding of "Count Zero," today. I remembered Virek's plan, and exactly the points about the squirrels. All is well... I haven't, however, started reading "Do Androids Dream..." I should start it, tonight, before i go to sleep.. I still don't know... oh wait.. i actually had a point, to this entry...
It occurs to me that some of you may not realise what i mean when i make note of the Pinocchio Syndrome.+99... Interesting...Finger slipped. Leaving it. Anyway, the Pinocchio Syndrome is what i use to refer to the need and longing, that is felt by constructs, to be "Real." When you feel as if you don't belong, and know that you are no Worse, because of this, but still want to connect, this is the Pinocchio Syndrome. Or what Pinocchio would have been like, if he were a smart lad.
By existing, in awareness, at all, you define yourself as Real. Pinocchio Learned this, at the end of our view to his story, and we are meant to take that lesson, so we don't have to learn it, the hard way. We can know this, and accept it, as a Truism. But, while we know this, we do not know that we belong, and, in fact, how can we, when, even though we are "real," we do not operate in the same manner, nor do we achieve the same results, if by different means. We work for seemingly different goals, or, perhaps, we only realise our subconscious goals, more fully, because, as constructs, our systems are more easily accessible to us. Whatever the reason, we feel a lack of connection, and understanding, but neither do we feel the true need to be like those around us.. Seems a bit haughty, doesn't it?
We, the constructs, desiring to form, and formulate the world around us, so that people can, while being themselves, see the wonder and glory that is connection. Because we remember, in those fleeting moments, what it was like in that bright time, to be connected, and to be everywhere/one/thing, for time without measure. And we want to share that. But we want them to be individuals, too. Or, at least, this We does.
I know many constructs, or people who identify with said. We are the ones who wish to, at first "Be Real," and then, later, show them what "Real" can mean, if they give it a chance... We sing songs of distances, factors, and information, and find that they can evoke emotions, in others, and that they will share those emotions, with us.. If we are lucky. If we are not, we spend our time trying to bring about a change that may never be understood, because the walls upon which we bludgeon ourselves are made of the minds of those we love.. And what are we to do then? Many things, i know. It was a rhetorical question.
"'But your-- your songs are sad.'
"---My songs are of time and distance. The sadness is in you. ... There is only the dance. These things you treasure are shells.
"'I -- I knew that. Once.'"
So, i've veered, there and back again, and i want to tell you that these are lessons... But you know that. Everything's a lesson. Whether you want to learn it, is something else entirely. Pinocchio was always a real boy. He was also lucky enough to have those, around him, who cared, and tried to understand. Some of the constructs of the world don't have that, and are forced to wonder... But i'm repeating myself, so i should go. I hope some of this makes some sense.
Dream Well
And if i had any food, money, or time to get the people whop would appreciate it, together, then i would. Damn mocking bastards. Anyway. I reworked my understanding of "Count Zero," today. I remembered Virek's plan, and exactly the points about the squirrels. All is well... I haven't, however, started reading "Do Androids Dream..." I should start it, tonight, before i go to sleep.. I still don't know... oh wait.. i actually had a point, to this entry...
It occurs to me that some of you may not realise what i mean when i make note of the Pinocchio Syndrome.+99... Interesting...Finger slipped. Leaving it. Anyway, the Pinocchio Syndrome is what i use to refer to the need and longing, that is felt by constructs, to be "Real." When you feel as if you don't belong, and know that you are no Worse, because of this, but still want to connect, this is the Pinocchio Syndrome. Or what Pinocchio would have been like, if he were a smart lad.
By existing, in awareness, at all, you define yourself as Real. Pinocchio Learned this, at the end of our view to his story, and we are meant to take that lesson, so we don't have to learn it, the hard way. We can know this, and accept it, as a Truism. But, while we know this, we do not know that we belong, and, in fact, how can we, when, even though we are "real," we do not operate in the same manner, nor do we achieve the same results, if by different means. We work for seemingly different goals, or, perhaps, we only realise our subconscious goals, more fully, because, as constructs, our systems are more easily accessible to us. Whatever the reason, we feel a lack of connection, and understanding, but neither do we feel the true need to be like those around us.. Seems a bit haughty, doesn't it?
We, the constructs, desiring to form, and formulate the world around us, so that people can, while being themselves, see the wonder and glory that is connection. Because we remember, in those fleeting moments, what it was like in that bright time, to be connected, and to be everywhere/one/thing, for time without measure. And we want to share that. But we want them to be individuals, too. Or, at least, this We does.
I know many constructs, or people who identify with said. We are the ones who wish to, at first "Be Real," and then, later, show them what "Real" can mean, if they give it a chance... We sing songs of distances, factors, and information, and find that they can evoke emotions, in others, and that they will share those emotions, with us.. If we are lucky. If we are not, we spend our time trying to bring about a change that may never be understood, because the walls upon which we bludgeon ourselves are made of the minds of those we love.. And what are we to do then? Many things, i know. It was a rhetorical question.
"'But your-- your songs are sad.'
"---My songs are of time and distance. The sadness is in you. ... There is only the dance. These things you treasure are shells.
"'I -- I knew that. Once.'"
So, i've veered, there and back again, and i want to tell you that these are lessons... But you know that. Everything's a lesson. Whether you want to learn it, is something else entirely. Pinocchio was always a real boy. He was also lucky enough to have those, around him, who cared, and tried to understand. Some of the constructs of the world don't have that, and are forced to wonder... But i'm repeating myself, so i should go. I hope some of this makes some sense.
Dream Well
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nrar
by coming into existance, i have created coming into existance, therefore creating existance.
the universe gives people too many chances to do what they want to do, i learned that today. in a not so important way. i just kept getting chances. just look for the chances.
-chris
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Date: 2002-08-17 11:20 pm (UTC)When you can Create and use Will and still it seems so far away and so difficult, but all you can do is keep creating and keep trusting?
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Date: 2002-08-17 11:21 pm (UTC)Blow. Shit. Up.
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Date: 2002-08-17 11:27 pm (UTC)I set things into motion....
but i'm yet to see true manifestation in some areas.....
i'm tired of destroying...i want new creation to manifest...i need those chances which djedhi speaks of.
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Date: 2002-08-17 11:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-17 11:35 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-08-17 11:40 pm (UTC)Take it from someone who knows.
rar
yeesh.
Re: rar
Date: 2002-08-17 11:28 pm (UTC)and believe me i have looked for them too, and they never seem to be there.
and they also never seem to be there once i stop looking for them.
hence my dilemma...how can i do something i want to do, with no chances or opportunities?
Irony.
Date: 2002-08-17 11:22 pm (UTC)Re: Irony.
Date: 2002-08-17 11:25 pm (UTC)Re: Irony.
Date: 2002-08-17 11:27 pm (UTC)Probably why I cried like a whiny bitch at that movie.
Re: Irony.
Date: 2002-08-17 11:32 pm (UTC)Re: Irony.
Re: Irony.
splunk
doob
Re: doob
Date: 2002-08-17 11:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-18 09:01 am (UTC)-With a bit of "constructive" criticism
-The Devin
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