Evening breezes and songs that last lifetimes.

[wolven7]

Eminem - [Sing For The Moment]--- There are still issues with the immaturity, and not much i can do about it. The simple act of people existing seems to aggravate my sensibilities. And i don't know what i'm meant to do about it. IS there anything i can do? Or is it me, again?

Have i changed? Am i so different that things at which i would once laugh have begun to cause me discomfort? Or, perhaps, it is the repetition. The fact that every time, it's the same things. The same jokes, and the same actions. (The Avalanches - [Frontier Psychiatrist]). I don't know. I feel different. i feel like there are plateaus that i have reached, and vistas from which i've looked, and they're a different view than i've seen, in the past... They're a bit darker, and a bit more vicious... More predatory, and wanting to taste every fibre of everything it encounters... Or very nearly Every.

MC Chris - [Fuckin' Up My Christmas]--- I said, earlier tonight, that i don't find kissing to be so much a Pleasure thing, as a sensual thing. I do it to figure out which spices i should use, when i eventually get around to killing and cooking the person. The same goes for licking... it's a sensual thing, and, sure, there's pleasure involved... but what if that's not really my primary goal... But this is what i get, when i sit around watching a programme on cannibalism...

I do want to taste the people i know... i want to lick, taste, feel, and immerse myself, in nearly every molecule that is them. (Cowboy Bebop - [Green Bird]). And i've realised why some people make me so uncomfortable, when they seem to want to do the same to me: I can't tell if they're being them, or if they're being Me... If they're being Them, then there won't be a problem, but they don't generally give me the chance to know who They Are... So i get nervous, and wary. If i could count on people to be themselves, at all times, this wouldn't be a problem.

Dead Can Dance - [Desert Song]--- But that may be asking things of people which they may not be prepared to give. They may not, yet, know how to be themselves, even Some of the times, let alone at all times. So, i'll wait, and i'll allow them to blossom, and grow, as they can and will... But i do want to do like Neruda said: "I want to do with you/ what the spring/ does with the cherry trees."

The Changelings - [Flowers Cover Your Eyes]--- Another set of transformations... growth. Change... I love the sense of humour that technology, in my possession, seems to gain.... So much potential in everyone i know... i'm going to go...

Dream Well

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Ya kissing, licking, and emersing are all very sensual things that many share with others only not as many actually eat people. But whatever flotes your boat. Who wants human????

If your grammar is correct, we don't have a problem.

[karishi.livejournal.com]

"If I could count on people to be themselves, at all times..."
You can count on A PERSON to be themselves, some of themselves or others of themselves.
Yes, there's the frightening possibility that some Selves overlap, between them and thou. More frightening to you, I suppose, than to others, who know you from being outside your Game and therefore not knowing all your rules. Rambling...ah well.

And I know the feeling of hearing the same things, again and again. I am, after all, visiting my grandparents...

[xabigailx.livejournal.com]

I taste like oranges. Please don't cook me.

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[wolven.livejournal.com]

Semi-metaphorical, dear.