Lick my soul and fuck my mind....
Aug. 13th, 2002 03:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7And i can't think of anything sexier. Certain phrases, said by people in the past few days, going through my head, Making me want to help them feel certain ways. Brief conversations, flashing through my mind, tempting me to continue along certain paths... Hope... Do i deserve such a thing as that?
I know i haven't been around, a lot, and i know i haven't made a lot of attempts to work with and meet up with people. I'm sorry. I'm still trying to stabilize, and nearly every interaction, in between, has fallen to dust and ashes. I don't blame the others, involved. i know where the fault, if such a thing can be said, lies, and that is with me. My mind has not been in a suitable place and i have not been of a suitable temperament. At least not in my terms of suitability. With Discord holding as much sway in my life as she has (Wookie, wookie), i've not been able to make the flux a profitable one. Ah well.
I've found a lot of new music. Well. Not new. But... perhaps.. a new take on some things i've known, before. I'm reworking Skinny Puppy, into my life, along with some OGHR. Dirge (Roman) has done cover art for both of the above. Also, and i don't know (or particularly care) how many of you will like this fact, but i've been listening to Eminem's new album. I like it. It's Damn good. It's a little less harsh, but in the way that a man who's been screaming at his little gripes will get extremely quiet when he comes to the source of his difficulties. The softness drives the points home, all the more. I highly recommend it. Hmm...
Here's todays Horror Scope: Domestic chores may well take up a lot of your time today, Wolven. If you have young children in the house, expect them to consume more time than usual. Socks, pacifiers and shoes get lost one by one. It is impossible to get out of the house, much less get anything done inside. Work offers no respite; your co-workers are just as aimless and forgetful as the kids.
It makes me a little worried. I've been dealing in varying forms of incompetence, for weeks. I would prefer it not to continue. But i guess that i'll have to work, from inside out, if i want change, these days... I sometimes miss the days when i could display a little Brute Change, at the universe, and get something that was at least close to the results i wanted. Nowadays, there's no room for the Tower, and nothing but Death, and Hanged Men, all around. But what can you do, right? As the Mahatma said, "You must be the change you wish to see, in the world." Only now, at four in the morning, do i realise/integrate/accept how true and applicable that is, in the rest of my life; how much it Truly Fits. But i should get going. I may have a long day ahead of me, beginning with a nice, long shower.
Before i go, have a link: http://loki.ragnarokr.com/pipindex.htm
See you soon.
Dream Well
I know i haven't been around, a lot, and i know i haven't made a lot of attempts to work with and meet up with people. I'm sorry. I'm still trying to stabilize, and nearly every interaction, in between, has fallen to dust and ashes. I don't blame the others, involved. i know where the fault, if such a thing can be said, lies, and that is with me. My mind has not been in a suitable place and i have not been of a suitable temperament. At least not in my terms of suitability. With Discord holding as much sway in my life as she has (Wookie, wookie), i've not been able to make the flux a profitable one. Ah well.
I've found a lot of new music. Well. Not new. But... perhaps.. a new take on some things i've known, before. I'm reworking Skinny Puppy, into my life, along with some OGHR. Dirge (Roman) has done cover art for both of the above. Also, and i don't know (or particularly care) how many of you will like this fact, but i've been listening to Eminem's new album. I like it. It's Damn good. It's a little less harsh, but in the way that a man who's been screaming at his little gripes will get extremely quiet when he comes to the source of his difficulties. The softness drives the points home, all the more. I highly recommend it. Hmm...
Here's todays Horror Scope: Domestic chores may well take up a lot of your time today, Wolven. If you have young children in the house, expect them to consume more time than usual. Socks, pacifiers and shoes get lost one by one. It is impossible to get out of the house, much less get anything done inside. Work offers no respite; your co-workers are just as aimless and forgetful as the kids.
It makes me a little worried. I've been dealing in varying forms of incompetence, for weeks. I would prefer it not to continue. But i guess that i'll have to work, from inside out, if i want change, these days... I sometimes miss the days when i could display a little Brute Change, at the universe, and get something that was at least close to the results i wanted. Nowadays, there's no room for the Tower, and nothing but Death, and Hanged Men, all around. But what can you do, right? As the Mahatma said, "You must be the change you wish to see, in the world." Only now, at four in the morning, do i realise/integrate/accept how true and applicable that is, in the rest of my life; how much it Truly Fits. But i should get going. I may have a long day ahead of me, beginning with a nice, long shower.
Before i go, have a link: http://loki.ragnarokr.com/pipindex.htm
See you soon.
Dream Well
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Lucky you.
Be. Change. Seek. World. Ghandi.