Dreams and other thought forms.
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wolven7Tori Amos - [Cruel]--- I have this driving urge to listen to two Tori albums, today. This is one of them, and the other is the one that directly follows. I just thought I should let you know that t1998-1999 seems to be rearing its head, today.
I dreamed of a white flag banner, like a Japanese standard, bourne in front of a party of people, through a labyrinth of books and cards. Meeting up with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
halafax somewhere in the labyrinth, and someone telling him that he had too much makeup on and that it was getting cakey. I was looking for a card for Gladys, the GDS administrator whose birthday is on the 25th.
Tori Amos - [Black-Dove (January)]--- That's all I remember about that dream sequence, because of the cat climbing all over me, my trying to remove him, and then his claws getting lodged in my throat. I don't think he likes me very much.
Back to bed, a re-occurring motif of searching old corner stores, from my childhood for various drinks and snacks that I remember. (Tori Amos - [Raspberry Swirl]). At one point, we were waiting in a crowd press outside The Vortex, and there were no seats, but they let us in, anyway. We went inside and it was actually The Hawk N' Dove, the bar where my dad tookmech_angel and I for breakfast on the morning that we left, the time we Drove to DC. (Tori Amos - [Jackie's Strength]). mech_angel's sitting at the bar, and everyone's talking to her, listening to her talk about something important, and I have notihng to contribute, but I smell something, out on the street and, going outside, I recognise where I am, and I follow the smell down the blook to the corner store, and I go inside, looking at the snacks and exotic foods, like Blue Raspberry RC Cola, and random "juice" boxes, more food colouring and sugar than any real fruit.
Everything shifted, and I went to the counter,which was where i remembered it having moved to, but not where I remember it being, when I was a kid. Something had transpired between the shop owner-- a Pakistani gentleman-- and the person whose point of view I occupied. The person had beaten the shop owner, and there were intimations that the gang he was with had molested the shop owner's wife. (Tori Amos - [Iieee]). The guy felt the need to apologise, to make up for what he had done, and there was this extremely awkward conversation, with years of hidden and pent-up emotion, and things that had been hidden being brought to light, again. The scene splits as we spiral into the centre of the store, and it's those two walking around a store, but it's also me and Patrick walking back to the stoop of the building in which the bar is, talking about things, going back inside another store.
Strange.
Earlier this week I talked about the idea of "enjoying something wrong." This was brought on by considerations of television people and their television way of seeing things. "Burn Notice" as being about "the take-away" for instance. (Tori Amos - [Liquid Diamonds]). That just seems to me to be the wrong angle from whcih to approach it, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to properly explicate why. But I'll give it a shot and say, think about this: I grew up in DC, watching spy movies, secret agent stuff, in a family that had city state or federal government ties, all the time. My father is a systems engineer, independent contracting for a branch of the government, and I've been vaguely paranoid of the Illuminati, since I learned of their existence.
For me, as an individual, do you think that Burn Notice is about "the take-away?" Fuck no. For me, that show is about as many people as possible learning things that, for the most part, I Already Know. This a mode of thought in which my brain constantly works, every day, angles and opportunities the ability to use my environment and the materials at hand to do what I need to do. These are principles that I hold, and want other people to hold, as well, and to see them on television, and apparently Loved on television, makes me very happy.
To approach this from the angle of "a nifty quirk," or a some kind of funny hook,it ignpores the point, entirely. (Tori Amos - [She's Your Cocaine]). Knowledge base vs. Water-Cooler talk. The difference between, I guess, talking about what's going to happen to the people on "Lost," and talking about what systems the symbols are pulled from, and what they mean, when recombined, in that way.
But that's me. I'm sure you couldn't care less.
Have good days.
I dreamed of a white flag banner, like a Japanese standard, bourne in front of a party of people, through a labyrinth of books and cards. Meeting up with
halafax somewhere in the labyrinth, and someone telling him that he had too much makeup on and that it was getting cakey. I was looking for a card for Gladys, the GDS administrator whose birthday is on the 25th. Tori Amos - [Black-Dove (January)]--- That's all I remember about that dream sequence, because of the cat climbing all over me, my trying to remove him, and then his claws getting lodged in my throat. I don't think he likes me very much.
Back to bed, a re-occurring motif of searching old corner stores, from my childhood for various drinks and snacks that I remember. (Tori Amos - [Raspberry Swirl]). At one point, we were waiting in a crowd press outside The Vortex, and there were no seats, but they let us in, anyway. We went inside and it was actually The Hawk N' Dove, the bar where my dad took
mech_angel and I for breakfast on the morning that we left, the time we Drove to DC. (Tori Amos - [Jackie's Strength]). mech_angel's sitting at the bar, and everyone's talking to her, listening to her talk about something important, and I have notihng to contribute, but I smell something, out on the street and, going outside, I recognise where I am, and I follow the smell down the blook to the corner store, and I go inside, looking at the snacks and exotic foods, like Blue Raspberry RC Cola, and random "juice" boxes, more food colouring and sugar than any real fruit.Everything shifted, and I went to the counter,which was where i remembered it having moved to, but not where I remember it being, when I was a kid. Something had transpired between the shop owner-- a Pakistani gentleman-- and the person whose point of view I occupied. The person had beaten the shop owner, and there were intimations that the gang he was with had molested the shop owner's wife. (Tori Amos - [Iieee]). The guy felt the need to apologise, to make up for what he had done, and there was this extremely awkward conversation, with years of hidden and pent-up emotion, and things that had been hidden being brought to light, again. The scene splits as we spiral into the centre of the store, and it's those two walking around a store, but it's also me and Patrick walking back to the stoop of the building in which the bar is, talking about things, going back inside another store.
Strange.
Earlier this week I talked about the idea of "enjoying something wrong." This was brought on by considerations of television people and their television way of seeing things. "Burn Notice" as being about "the take-away" for instance. (Tori Amos - [Liquid Diamonds]). That just seems to me to be the wrong angle from whcih to approach it, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to properly explicate why. But I'll give it a shot and say, think about this: I grew up in DC, watching spy movies, secret agent stuff, in a family that had city state or federal government ties, all the time. My father is a systems engineer, independent contracting for a branch of the government, and I've been vaguely paranoid of the Illuminati, since I learned of their existence.
For me, as an individual, do you think that Burn Notice is about "the take-away?" Fuck no. For me, that show is about as many people as possible learning things that, for the most part, I Already Know. This a mode of thought in which my brain constantly works, every day, angles and opportunities the ability to use my environment and the materials at hand to do what I need to do. These are principles that I hold, and want other people to hold, as well, and to see them on television, and apparently Loved on television, makes me very happy.
To approach this from the angle of "a nifty quirk," or a some kind of funny hook,it ignpores the point, entirely. (Tori Amos - [She's Your Cocaine]). Knowledge base vs. Water-Cooler talk. The difference between, I guess, talking about what's going to happen to the people on "Lost," and talking about what systems the symbols are pulled from, and what they mean, when recombined, in that way.
But that's me. I'm sure you couldn't care less.
Have good days.
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Date: 2007-08-15 04:33 pm (UTC)Mathew Good - "Weapon". Not spectacular, but an interesting video. Thought you might like bits of it.
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Date: 2007-08-15 04:43 pm (UTC)I'm not sure I agree
Date: 2007-08-15 08:59 pm (UTC)... I wonder how the prevalence of YouTube changes the medium, in that these videos are now scannable as opposed to the faint chance that someone recorded a video from their TV on VHS.
Re: I'm not sure I agree
Date: 2007-08-15 09:27 pm (UTC)That one, yeah.
Date: 2007-08-16 02:48 pm (UTC)Re: That one, yeah.
Date: 2007-08-16 05:35 pm (UTC)