AT every single turn.

[wolven7]

Every time I turn around, I think something is going well.

It is not.

Thesis work continues to fall apart, as people misinterpret what I'm trying to do, more and more. I think I'm understood, I think people can separate concepts from the people who hold them (at least in part), but apparently not.

Belly - [Low Red Moon]--- I don't know how to not be dishearteneed, at this. I don't know how I can take this having been misunderstood, whittled down, and recast so many times that not only is my graduation in jeopardy, but my very livelihood, sanity, and confidence is shaken.

[But] If I cannot make it through this, then I don't deserve to work in this field.

I feel sick.

{12.04pm:Placebo - [Without You I'm Nothing (w/ David Bowie)]--- From mendori: Nearly-Spontaneous Myth Generation. Beautiful stories of terror and decay, by those who would know it best: Homeless Children. Terrifying.}

Comments

[raoin.livejournal.com]

dude. i talked to white today and he pretty much told me to keep what i already had and then quadruple it, but without adding any more practitioner sources. he says that i need to have books concerning every aspect of the subject in total, read them all, but not really read them.

and then he questioined my ability to do research.

he keeps missing the essentialy point of my theme/study goal. i dont know what it is i am failing to say.

i think i may have to scrap my original prject intent in order to get this to move forward... from evolving gardnerian wicca to evolving american wicca. my problem is that, personally i'd do this in two stages, the first all from the practitioner perspective, to see how they think of wicca as evolving, and the second from the outsider perspective to see how they think of wicca as evolving. in specific i wanted to look at the conversation/argument between having lineage/heredity and having none.

i feel very deeply for you. should we buy a goat?

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Possibly a black rooster.

[mendori.livejournal.com]

Isnt it rats for thesis work? Or is that for computers. No, computers are hens, I'm fairly sure....

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Rats for psychological thesis works...

[moonandserpent.livejournal.com]

Where is the roadblock?

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Getting people to fully understand what I'm trying to get done.

I'll explain further in a new post.

[unknownbinaries.livejournal.com]

La Llorona is an old, old tale. Kind of like a banshee...I'll have to find the book I have that has that story in it.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

A lot of the components are old, but there's very little way these children could have come by them, and the ways that they put them together are amazing.

If you can find that, i'd like to read it.