Killing time...
May. 28th, 2002 03:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Well.. I've obviously not had to deliver enough messages, this tyme around... I've forgotten exactly how painful messages can be, to those recieving them. This is so bewildering to me, as a person, because the messages i've delivered were not notices of war, or annimosity. Quite the opposite, in fact. The message waqs meant to give the people who wanted one an out. Have them make one decission, and not have to worry about things, either way. But it's only caused morepain and confusion.
As a Messenger, i'm not at all surprised by this. Messages are not always recieved as they are intended. "Intent and Outcome are Rarely Coincident," as Dream, and the Thessalian once said. So, that part of me sees no schism here. My rational mind sees Choices-- It always sees choices-- and it sees the possible outcomes of said choices... One way leads one way, and the others lead their ways... If you do not like the choices you are given, then you should make your own. This, to me, is logical.
There are bad things going down, in this world... There are people who are dealing with some terribly horrid things. There are all kinds of psychioc ick and pain, flying around, right now, and my empathy is having to fight off, avidly, the most direct of it all. It's not at me, but it's in my general direction. And the thoughts, fears, wants, and desires of other people are all flowing at me, and trying to flow into me. I refuse to let them, from some obvious reasons, and some not so obvious. Either way, i'm going to keep doing what i've been doing, and not much is going to change, here. Other people need to stop bringing their shite to me, if they don't want to hear what i have to say. That's simply a General Rule.
I'm watching Donnie Darko, again. It's one of those "Make Wolven Feel Better" movies. It's good... I still have Messages to Deliver.
Fuck this noise. I'm going to go smoke, shield myself in Void and Self, and see who wants to try to fuck with me. I'm tired of this crap. As i've said, i have far too much of my own shit to deal with Right now.
Dream Well
As a Messenger, i'm not at all surprised by this. Messages are not always recieved as they are intended. "Intent and Outcome are Rarely Coincident," as Dream, and the Thessalian once said. So, that part of me sees no schism here. My rational mind sees Choices-- It always sees choices-- and it sees the possible outcomes of said choices... One way leads one way, and the others lead their ways... If you do not like the choices you are given, then you should make your own. This, to me, is logical.
There are bad things going down, in this world... There are people who are dealing with some terribly horrid things. There are all kinds of psychioc ick and pain, flying around, right now, and my empathy is having to fight off, avidly, the most direct of it all. It's not at me, but it's in my general direction. And the thoughts, fears, wants, and desires of other people are all flowing at me, and trying to flow into me. I refuse to let them, from some obvious reasons, and some not so obvious. Either way, i'm going to keep doing what i've been doing, and not much is going to change, here. Other people need to stop bringing their shite to me, if they don't want to hear what i have to say. That's simply a General Rule.
I'm watching Donnie Darko, again. It's one of those "Make Wolven Feel Better" movies. It's good... I still have Messages to Deliver.
Fuck this noise. I'm going to go smoke, shield myself in Void and Self, and see who wants to try to fuck with me. I'm tired of this crap. As i've said, i have far too much of my own shit to deal with Right now.
Dream Well
