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wolven7MC Chris - [Robotussin]--- Did you ever have one of those days where you have things to do, and things that you WANT to do, but, at the same tyme, you don't want to do a damn thing but sit on your ass, and not move too much? i'm having one of those. i'm out of school. The semester is over. i need to find a job, in my opinion, and i need a car. These things would, conceivably, make my life much easier. But also a bit more difficult.
i have a script that i haven't worked on in nearly a year. i think thisis bad. It's not very long, to begin with, and i haven't been able to make it bmuch longer. A bit here, some character development, there. No major plot point, and no extreme message. Subtle. Short views into lives. An overall picture at the end. i can't bring myself to work on it. It stares at me. It BEGS me to work on it. And i leave it there.
Cake - [Open Book]--- i also have a short story on which i could be working. Do i? No. i sit here, typing and extemporizing on this thing. Comp Bless Tech. And i don't have anyone with whom to work, either. It makes it difficult to keep myself on track, when ther are so many others around, wanting so much else from me, than writing. Or Art. people want conversation. Loyalty. Fielty. My Self. But do they want me to be happy in my Self, first? Some of them, maybe. But other simply want me there to hold over the hjeads of others in a sort of "Ha! i have him, and you don't" gesture. Spoils of war. And i refuse. But i've gotten a bit off track.
Cake - [Stickshifts And Safetybelts]--- Indeed, i have digressed. This piece is not about the ptty needs and machinations of those, around me, no. This is about me, wanting to write, and not being able. No. That is wrong. i am able. i have that, within me. But i'm not.... willing. Why? i've stated that, already. Beyoned that, i don't know, right now. i don't want to fuck up what has the potential to be beautiful, i guess. But that's something i do. i do it on purpose, occasionally. But not when it's death, or destruction, serves little purpose.
Zorak - [Don't Send In The Clowns]--- i don't have any... i need people who can switch, with me, from one topic to another, fluidly, smoothly. When one wants r needs to move on to something else, the other can do so, as well, without feeling as if they are being ignored. (DaVinci's Notebook & Moxy Fruvous - [Shoehorn With Teeth (TMBG Cover)]). That would be key. But that's something that can be lumped in the overall Thing i want, and it's really the only thing i want. Happiness.
Cake - [Daria]--- But i almost digressed, again. If i am to get any writing done, today, the only way to do it is to do it. i'll see you all Later. Plus i just got a pager message. Heh. funny how these things go. Ta.
Pleasant Day Dreams
i have a script that i haven't worked on in nearly a year. i think thisis bad. It's not very long, to begin with, and i haven't been able to make it bmuch longer. A bit here, some character development, there. No major plot point, and no extreme message. Subtle. Short views into lives. An overall picture at the end. i can't bring myself to work on it. It stares at me. It BEGS me to work on it. And i leave it there.
Cake - [Open Book]--- i also have a short story on which i could be working. Do i? No. i sit here, typing and extemporizing on this thing. Comp Bless Tech. And i don't have anyone with whom to work, either. It makes it difficult to keep myself on track, when ther are so many others around, wanting so much else from me, than writing. Or Art. people want conversation. Loyalty. Fielty. My Self. But do they want me to be happy in my Self, first? Some of them, maybe. But other simply want me there to hold over the hjeads of others in a sort of "Ha! i have him, and you don't" gesture. Spoils of war. And i refuse. But i've gotten a bit off track.
Cake - [Stickshifts And Safetybelts]--- Indeed, i have digressed. This piece is not about the ptty needs and machinations of those, around me, no. This is about me, wanting to write, and not being able. No. That is wrong. i am able. i have that, within me. But i'm not.... willing. Why? i've stated that, already. Beyoned that, i don't know, right now. i don't want to fuck up what has the potential to be beautiful, i guess. But that's something i do. i do it on purpose, occasionally. But not when it's death, or destruction, serves little purpose.
Zorak - [Don't Send In The Clowns]--- i don't have any... i need people who can switch, with me, from one topic to another, fluidly, smoothly. When one wants r needs to move on to something else, the other can do so, as well, without feeling as if they are being ignored. (DaVinci's Notebook & Moxy Fruvous - [Shoehorn With Teeth (TMBG Cover)]). That would be key. But that's something that can be lumped in the overall Thing i want, and it's really the only thing i want. Happiness.
Cake - [Daria]--- But i almost digressed, again. If i am to get any writing done, today, the only way to do it is to do it. i'll see you all Later. Plus i just got a pager message. Heh. funny how these things go. Ta.
Pleasant Day Dreams
