Well... There's that then.
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wolven7Warren Zevon - [Lord Byron's Luggage]--- I want to light the sky on fire.
I can't decide, right now, if I want to end it all, and let everyone not be, or simply start the clock again, from go. (Ani DiFranco - [Recoil]). I have Tori singing the line "And all along The Watch Tower" stuck in my head, and i want to draw it. There's things in my head as need to be done, wars to write and win, things like that.
Particle dispersement as oblivion, but not. Reintegration, perhaps. Whateva.
Sometimes, when people describe the horrible yawning abyss, at the edge of everything, into which everything flows, and blacker than the blackest black hole, i feel a little funny, inside. "Something between woozy and confusion." Song snippets to express feeling, as if, maye, if i put enough of them together, they'll form a coherent thought. (Avenue Q Original Cast - [Mix Tape]). Fuck that... I feel loved, unknown, feared, hated, dismissed, so often... I think back at the things i haven't let myself think, in so long.. how people tend to think little of me, till I back up my intentions... How rarely people take me at my word, before they know me.
Massive Attack - [Inertia Creeps]--- I remember nearly killing a boy, when i was eight, because he wouldn't leave my friends alone. It was a bit of an over-reaction, but it made him stop, and made sure that no one messed with me or my friends again. I got in trouble for that, and I don't thik i've physically defended a friend, since. Don't think i've needed to... Most of my friends can take care of themselves, in most ways, i guess... I don't really know what this is about, more than to say that... Well, i guess to Say that. Felt like it needed to be said.
To link it back, people have never found me threatening, until i make good on my threats, which are rarely threats, so much as Statements. (The Meltdowns - [Battle Hymn]). Each time i do that, people get scared and hurt, and look at me like i'm the bad guy. "Make way for the Bad Guy," and shit... Which, really, is why i loved the end of Ender's Game, and the end of The Peacekeeper Wars mini-series..
John Crichton: [John is about to activate the wormhole weapon] Do you want to see it? Do you want to see what you've been chasing me and my family for years for? Do you want to see a wormhole weapon?
Scorpius: Yes.
John Crichton: Beg.
Scorpius: I beg you.
John Crichton: It's not good enough. Say "please."
Scorpius: Please.
John Crichton: Pretty please...
Scorpius: -Pretty please.
John Crichton: With a cherry on top...
Scorpius: -With a cherry on top.
John Crichton: Happy Birthday. Now get out of my sight.
Bobgoblin - [25 Million To 1]--- And when he'd shown them all, the see the horror of it, and they Freak Out, and they say "Crichton... What have you done?" Because they didn't realise, and they never fucking realise, until it's too late, or damn near.
I'm out of here. Later Kiddles, as my dear old Dad would say.
I can't decide, right now, if I want to end it all, and let everyone not be, or simply start the clock again, from go. (Ani DiFranco - [Recoil]). I have Tori singing the line "And all along The Watch Tower" stuck in my head, and i want to draw it. There's things in my head as need to be done, wars to write and win, things like that.
Particle dispersement as oblivion, but not. Reintegration, perhaps. Whateva.
Sometimes, when people describe the horrible yawning abyss, at the edge of everything, into which everything flows, and blacker than the blackest black hole, i feel a little funny, inside. "Something between woozy and confusion." Song snippets to express feeling, as if, maye, if i put enough of them together, they'll form a coherent thought. (Avenue Q Original Cast - [Mix Tape]). Fuck that... I feel loved, unknown, feared, hated, dismissed, so often... I think back at the things i haven't let myself think, in so long.. how people tend to think little of me, till I back up my intentions... How rarely people take me at my word, before they know me.
Massive Attack - [Inertia Creeps]--- I remember nearly killing a boy, when i was eight, because he wouldn't leave my friends alone. It was a bit of an over-reaction, but it made him stop, and made sure that no one messed with me or my friends again. I got in trouble for that, and I don't thik i've physically defended a friend, since. Don't think i've needed to... Most of my friends can take care of themselves, in most ways, i guess... I don't really know what this is about, more than to say that... Well, i guess to Say that. Felt like it needed to be said.
To link it back, people have never found me threatening, until i make good on my threats, which are rarely threats, so much as Statements. (The Meltdowns - [Battle Hymn]). Each time i do that, people get scared and hurt, and look at me like i'm the bad guy. "Make way for the Bad Guy," and shit... Which, really, is why i loved the end of Ender's Game, and the end of The Peacekeeper Wars mini-series..
John Crichton: [John is about to activate the wormhole weapon] Do you want to see it? Do you want to see what you've been chasing me and my family for years for? Do you want to see a wormhole weapon?
Scorpius: Yes.
John Crichton: Beg.
Scorpius: I beg you.
John Crichton: It's not good enough. Say "please."
Scorpius: Please.
John Crichton: Pretty please...
Scorpius: -Pretty please.
John Crichton: With a cherry on top...
Scorpius: -With a cherry on top.
John Crichton: Happy Birthday. Now get out of my sight.
Bobgoblin - [25 Million To 1]--- And when he'd shown them all, the see the horror of it, and they Freak Out, and they say "Crichton... What have you done?" Because they didn't realise, and they never fucking realise, until it's too late, or damn near.
I'm out of here. Later Kiddles, as my dear old Dad would say.
