Now, the important questions:
Nov. 9th, 2004 11:32 pmRasputina - [You Don't Own Me]--- If you trust me (two different links there), then do you know what i plan to do with the world? What i am doing with the world, in slow degrees? (Interpol - [Obstacle 2]). If you don't know, do you want to, or have you been deliberately not paying attention?
If you Do know, do you think/feel/believe i can do it?
Do you want to help?
These are the important questions. Just so i know where we stand. I don't want to stand completely alone, and, many times, i feel like i am. But that's all weird and Messianic-sounding, and that's not what i'm going for, here: Simply put, i want to open, enlighten, and change the world, and i think i can. (Chris Ward - [Hesh Wants Some Sex]). I think that everyone else can, too, but you should damn well know that, by now. I think that you all can, and i believe in you to do so...
I trust each of you to do what you're going to do, at the very least, and i trust many of you to search for and be true to yourselves, above all else. (Deadsy - [Itsy Bitsy Titsy Girl]). And that's important, to me, more than most things. I trust a few of you with my lives, and i trust one of you with utterly everything that i am, no distinctions, no regrets, no matter how much that may initially discomfort. Trust is strange, that way. So i want to know, if you want to know, if you know what i want.
Jack Off Jill - [Covet& Angel's Fuck (Live)]--- And i wonder, in there, if, in the knowing, some of the trust would go away? Sometimes it does. Sometimes it strengthens. We'll just have to see.
I await.
{12.27am:Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Mathsong]--- And let it be stated: If you don't trust me, That's cool, too. The other questions still apply.}
If you Do know, do you think/feel/believe i can do it?
Do you want to help?
These are the important questions. Just so i know where we stand. I don't want to stand completely alone, and, many times, i feel like i am. But that's all weird and Messianic-sounding, and that's not what i'm going for, here: Simply put, i want to open, enlighten, and change the world, and i think i can. (Chris Ward - [Hesh Wants Some Sex]). I think that everyone else can, too, but you should damn well know that, by now. I think that you all can, and i believe in you to do so...
I trust each of you to do what you're going to do, at the very least, and i trust many of you to search for and be true to yourselves, above all else. (Deadsy - [Itsy Bitsy Titsy Girl]). And that's important, to me, more than most things. I trust a few of you with my lives, and i trust one of you with utterly everything that i am, no distinctions, no regrets, no matter how much that may initially discomfort. Trust is strange, that way. So i want to know, if you want to know, if you know what i want.
Jack Off Jill - [Covet& Angel's Fuck (Live)]--- And i wonder, in there, if, in the knowing, some of the trust would go away? Sometimes it does. Sometimes it strengthens. We'll just have to see.
I await.
{12.27am:Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Mathsong]--- And let it be stated: If you don't trust me, That's cool, too. The other questions still apply.}
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Date: 2004-11-10 07:21 am (UTC)And yes I think I do know what you want to do. I dont really need to know the details, and in many ways I think the reason we dont talk much is that there is too much resonance between what we do. I need to be sitting on the edge watching the universe with as few filters as I can afford and still remain conscious. But to me, its all about everyone finding their way to the heart of it.
It makes me happy to know you have a path, that you found it yourself, that you built your boots and earned your blisters. That you get up each day and you have a better reason for living than to simply be there tomorrow when you wake up.
And I hope, that one, many or all of us succeed.
-sam
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One day, all of us will succeed. And that will be a very interesting day.
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Trusting the Wolf
Date: 2004-11-14 01:22 am (UTC)Sure, in a general sense, and b/c I have no reason to doubt you, I think you can succeed. However, that's not good enough for me. I want to beleive in you, and anyone else, but I would like good reason to. I don't know much about you or your thoughts, feelings, beliefs. I catch glimpses, hear whispers, but I am certain of nothing pertaining to you and that bothers me. I want to know what I am believing in so I can give it my full support and attention. As of now, I can't care one way or the other about your plan b/c it is so much mumbo-jumbo to me.
I hear about magic, prophecy, space-time, dimensions, whatever, and it really means nothing to me b/c I wasn't raised around it. I have not been exposed to it in any intimate manner. I can only accept in a general, equivacol, sort of way. I have no reason to disbelieve, so I believe, but I have no reason to believe except for having no reason to disbelieve. Understand that? All things being equal, I am willing to allow you to think what you want b/c it doesn't effect me.
I can do whatever I do tomorrow and what will your plan do to stop me? I have no knowledge of the plan or of you, yet I want that knowledge. I want the plan, I want you, to matter to me beyond a fleeting, Love Thy Neighbor sort of way. Once I get that personal understanding, then can I truly believe or disbeleive. Then I can truly desire or disdain to help the Plan. As of now, its all Whatever to me, I'm going to bed. I apologize for being inarticulate, but I am out of practice as far as expressing deep thought goes.
Anyway, I do in fact trust you. I introduced myself to you for a reason as yet to be explained to/by me. You were revealed to me on 3 seperate occassions for reasons yet to be explained to/by me. That means s/t to me in of itself and I want answers for it. You now ask these questions of me about your future and the world and your plan and my trust in you and said plan. To me, that means I have to stick around, if only to gain what I am looking for. Yet, I don't want to hinder or harm or disrupt anyone or anything. I have no idea what use I could/would be to you or if I even spoke to you that day to do so. It's all so confusing, but it gives me s/t to think about . Anyway, I think I am about to ramble, so there are your answers.
Re: Trusting the Wolf
People will realise what they Can do, fully, not just in some academic way, and will be able to make their choice, of what they want, with that full knowledge.
And you weren't inarticulate. Quite the opposite, in fact.