Show me what it's for. Make me understand it. I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer

[wolven7]

Not so dead inside, anymore, i guess... Still don't feel like i have freedomof movement... But hey, i'm only 19. Who had freedom of movement and decision, at 19, right? Yeah. Anyway... Shite... It rather well sucks. There's been conflict, and miscommunication, and a lot of it is myfault, in some way or another. And it sucks. i'm tired of this. And people don't fucking talk to one another (Still), because it's too fucking hard, or some bullshit, of the same variety. And because they don't, and people around them do,There's issues.

Issues with the Way things are said, What things are said, Why they were said, and so on, and on, and on...And there's shit to do about it, except try your best to do what you think is right. And when you sit back and watch, for months, years, seconds, days, Ticks on end, you start to get a little edgy... It's either act, or stop caring, or go insane. Well, i've done all three, now. i care, in some ways, but i'm pretty sure you couldn't define them, or apply them in any "normal" sense. But, over all? i don't care. Not about much.

i care about myself, and the Truth, and the mental and physical well being of those aound me. This does not mean that i am going to take an active role in trying to get you to be happy. If i see untruth, i will correct it. If i see a threat to your life and light, i will warn you of it. If you try to fuck with me, i swear by all i hold holy i will fucking detroy you. One way or another. And that about sums it up.

You don't know me by now. Not fully. i don't care who you are. i've grown, and i've changed. i don't even fully fucking know me, right now. So don't think that you know me. There may be surprises in store for all of us, when all is said and done. Yes? Yesss. If you want to start knowing me, start by asking, answering, thinking, and feeling Truthfully. Don't lie to me. Certainly don't lie to yourself. And i don't care how ok not knowing makes it. Saying it's not there is not the same as saying "I don't wnt to know." Straight up.

And now i leave you. i haven't yelled, this tyme... i don't know that you can even rightfully call it a rant...

Good Nytes. Good Days. Dream Well

Comments

Knowing one's self

[nytehiker.livejournal.com]

I was talking with someone the other day, about learning more about myself. And they claimed that someone stating they don't know themselves is full of it. Something about searching for some meaning in life that doesn't exist. Of course I didn't agree with this, as I learn more and more about myself everday. Some people you just can't talk to. They will continuously insist that you are wrong. Instead of saying, "Hey I never thought of it that way before." Why is it so important to people to be right? Why am I writing all this here? Damn, I should be posting in my own journal..lol.

Re: Knowing one's self

[wolven.livejournal.com]

i should be in bed. It's true, therew is always more to know. Sorry i wasn't on earlier... Life got full of things. :\ talk to you soon.