Again i say it, and again and again: Mehr Und Doch Noch Mehr

[wolven7]

i am in a Kroger, that exists, and i am searching for groceries and books. My mother has sent me into the store to find these things, and the Kroger is next to a field, where the St. Patrick's Day parade is, in Atlanta, only on a Hill, that exists, elsewhere.

My mother is Akasha, Queen of all Vampires.

i spend the rest of the tyme, in the store, searching for the things i'm supposed to find, and the Kroger is also like a Sam's Club. It has books and lots of things. It is the epitome of all Krogerness. After awhile of walking around, searching, it starts to get fuzzy. i wake up

So that was my dream from last nyte, and then i got up and went to a panel discussion with the entire Staff of the Department of Religious Studies, at Ga State. i spent the day thinking and acting and wondering. i've figured out what i need in a lot of respects, and i've realised that while i do need people, they cannot always give me what i need. *sigh* Here:

What i need is someone with whom i can talk and share and be with, one way or another, and with whom my relationship can fluxuate as is needed. And that's the part that won't work. Most people refuse to have a constant flux of change, or even the ability thereof. They want Stability, and security, but what many fail to understand is that there is stability in Change.

And if we have the ability to deal and talk, and, if it's a relationship, separate and with minimal animosity, and, if it's a friendship, not be around them constantly, or be around them only when we want to, or figure out a way to accomodate each other, &c., &c. &c... well....

My life would be perfect, then, wouldn't it?

i'm done for now, but i may be back later. Tyme to go write a paper. ttfn

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

We all want security and someone to talk to and yes i at least understand that there is stability in change. Haveing someone that can change with you or at least be with you while you change is really nice. You also have to keep the lines of communication open so you can talk about this change. Andonce you find that oerson then you will be happy but you will also still have problems it is solving and working through those problems together that is the key. As Luke told me Keep faith in that someone and they will suprise you just knowing they have your faith in them.
*hugs*
Rosie

*sigh*

[wolven.livejournal.com]

When you Find Me the person who is willing to do what i'm talking about, Truly Willing, and Will be able to match my mood, and my want, or at least work out a consensus, then you let me know. Because, as i see, it doesn't exist, right now. NOt for me.

As i told Sam, earlier, i got off of the Intermediate track on San Francisco Rush, and got on the Difficult. Now i'm crashing into walls, flipping over rails, AND exploding. Fun, huh?

Re: *sigh*

[(Anonymous)]

trust me i know how you feel i have been there many a time and it aint fun. I does look so far away. I know. Just as everyone tells me don't look for it and it comes to you.
hope it helps in a way