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wolven7Primus - [My Name Is Mud]--- So, yes. Don't mind the priors. There is, unfortunately, a feeling of always being pushed, when things along these lines come up. Something that isn't seen, believed or felt, for reasons i know (cause i don't put them that far out there), but that.. others don't fully swing. I've been feeling, tonight, like someone is using my life energy to play a bass-line. And it's not this song, but it's kind of like it. Only completely different. Darker, and deeper, and with much more of a crashing reverb... And the drums on accompaniment are awesome...
Maybe i do say things, without putting anything behind it. But that's because... well, certain things... I'd rather not provide the expreience if the cost is the loss of someone i consider a friend... But, then, i suppose that's not putting the whole truth of me, out there, is it? And that's something i said i'd always do... (Static-X - [Cold]). I'm a contradictory person, on many levels. I know that. I accept that. I use that, to make sense of my universe. But it certainly makes a lot of things difficult. Not a complaint. Simply a statement of fact.
Things i do will hurt people, and/or potentially drive them away from me. Sometimes these reasons will be the same, and sometimes they will not. There is no stopping that, really, without succumbing to subjugation of parts of me that.. well, i like a lot. Again, not complaint, or whining, or trolling for pity; simply a statement of fact. I told someone something, yesterday, in relation to something completely other, but, we already discussed that linkage. What they said was "I hope that no one will be hurt." To which i replied "Of course they will. The better hope is to mittigate the damage." (kidneythieves - [Before I'm Dead]). That's really all i've ever wanted to do, i guess... on a lot of levels... except when i was causing it...
Not that this has anything to do with anything. Simply stating a fact. Striving for better understanding, of myself and others...
Dream Well
Maybe i do say things, without putting anything behind it. But that's because... well, certain things... I'd rather not provide the expreience if the cost is the loss of someone i consider a friend... But, then, i suppose that's not putting the whole truth of me, out there, is it? And that's something i said i'd always do... (Static-X - [Cold]). I'm a contradictory person, on many levels. I know that. I accept that. I use that, to make sense of my universe. But it certainly makes a lot of things difficult. Not a complaint. Simply a statement of fact.
Things i do will hurt people, and/or potentially drive them away from me. Sometimes these reasons will be the same, and sometimes they will not. There is no stopping that, really, without succumbing to subjugation of parts of me that.. well, i like a lot. Again, not complaint, or whining, or trolling for pity; simply a statement of fact. I told someone something, yesterday, in relation to something completely other, but, we already discussed that linkage. What they said was "I hope that no one will be hurt." To which i replied "Of course they will. The better hope is to mittigate the damage." (kidneythieves - [Before I'm Dead]). That's really all i've ever wanted to do, i guess... on a lot of levels... except when i was causing it...
Not that this has anything to do with anything. Simply stating a fact. Striving for better understanding, of myself and others...
Dream Well
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Date: 2004-01-07 10:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Bassists.
&c.