"The me that you know..."

[wolven7]

Stabbing Westward - [Save Yourself]--- It has been said, recently, that i've changed. That i've become more angry, more upset, less understainding. I've heard that i make people feel old, i've been told that i seem cornered, like a trapped animal. (MDFMK - [Witch Hunt]). I worry that i'm Whining-- as you read, last night-- and i get told things, things which either allay my fears, or re-inforce them. Terrible Thoughts, and whiriling arouynd. Not wanting to be around people. Wanting to disect everything, and drop little tablets of Information in the open surgical woulds {"wounds"}.

Being told to tone down the Sociopathy, and the Reflexivity, and simply think my responses through. Slowly. And perhaps i should. I always try to. (Fleming & John - [Carol of the Bells]). But i don't disect Every Muscle structure... and maybe i should... Whatever.

You'll talk to me, later, and i'll talk to you whenever we're ready.

{Snake River Conspiracy - [Lovesong (Cure Cover)]--- Dreams, last night, of talking to teididh, having not seen that group, in a while. (LUXT - [Witchhunt]). Other dreams of michette dating someone who she thought was fifteen, and ended up being nineteen. Dreams of Marta Rides, which always signal change, of some sort, and feeding Lizards hot wings. All of this, except for the meeting, in the apartment at OakTree.

Anyone remember Oak Tree? Porches? The Cold? Talking... I miss those kind of things. Mainly because i Still need tot Talk with people.

I realised that a clue to the Key, of making myself feel more... able to do what i want, is being able to tell those who need it, from me, "Fuck You, and Here's Why."

Snake River Conspiracy - [Coke & Vaseline]--- And feel free to do the same to me, of course. Ta.

{{Also something in a dream about talking to raoin about a "Pirate's of the Carribean Sequel". And yes, they Are making it. Found this out, last night. Early this morning. Sommat.}}}

Comments

humph

[mahajarabali.livejournal.com]

Ya know, stress is a killer... even if "personalities" when the truth is you're distraught and worried, and that's gonna make ya short tempered and grouchy. Others just need to roll with your punches a little while to reasonable extents. Bah.

Re: humph

[wolven.livejournal.com]

I think the same can be said, For Me, though. That i need to work things in a bit more stride. Close Distance, again. Relearn how that's all ok, what's going on, over there. I'll talk to you later.

Rolled Punches and all.

Re: humph

[mahajarabali.livejournal.com]

Well, I did mention reasonable limits. After all, even stressed out, one has lines they shouldn't cross. :-)

Re: humph

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Well if those lines are Specific Words, then perhaps, but if those lines are Understandings that need to be had... I'll just say that there would be Better ways to cross those lines. ;)