Realisations Driven Home by Family

[wolven7]

I talked to my mother, tonight, about Life. The things i want out of life. The changes i want to see. And you know what? She doesn't understand. But i've got a little more of an understanding of the fact that people don't want to know. It's still slightly upsetting. But i put soemthing, to my mother, tonight, that i don't think i've ever put any bettter, ever before.

"It's not about Them. I don't...'Teach,' for them to tell me 'Hey man, you did a good job, there, and you taught people something really new and different. Good job.' I do it, because i feel that it's What I Am. That it is my Purpose."

She knows, if not understands, the things i believe about the nature of the soul. The way the universe operates. And she has admitted to herself, finally, the possibility that i may be poly-theistic. But that doesn't even fucking Cover it.

*sigh* I hate this shit, sometimes... One of the most fucking difficult paths i know. So very very lonely. *staples hand to forehead* Yeah.

Fuck off, for a bit, ok? Maybe later, we'll go out.. Have a smoke, and a cup of coffee...

Meh. Talk to you later.

Dream Well

{Quote for the evening, randomly chosen by flipping the pages of the quote book, while not looking, and pointing: "The truth that makes men free is for the most part the truth which men prefer not to hear." - Herbert Agar}