Well... here we go.

[wolven7]

Jack Off Jill - [Underjoyed]--- So, i have to ask it, since no one else will: What is with this Groups of People Goin Into a Similar Mental State, At the Same Time, shite? It's not simplyu a matter of then being of similar personalities, because i've seen other shit go down, and none of this happen. This is like an Ambient Malaise, or the Caused affects there-of, waiting, patiently to drop down on some unsuspecting person... People. (Jack Off Jill - [Surgery]). And it's happeneing at the same time. For various reasons, to be sure, but there is this level of Pain, or Upsettness, or Unhappiness, that's happening to Many of the people i know, all right now. This isn't about that, though, because, as i said, they all have their reasons to be in those states.... Damn good ones... And they'll leave them, when they can... My main concern is the anomally (can it even be called taht, anymore?) that causes these shifts to happen in a concentrated period of time. And i don't have the answer.

So, i sit here, thinking about people and their problems and wondering what i can do to help... and my family's in town... They want to do things, this weekend, i'm sure, or they wouldn't have come into town, so soon.... They would have come tomorrow, or Monday... done a Quick thing... But hey, whatever. (Jack Off Jill - [Star No Star]). I love my family, to be sure... But... It feels like that last bit of Freedom you have, before going to Prison. You know that, there, you won't be able to do nearly as many of the things that you enjoy, and that the world will seem much smaller. Sure maybe that's good, and maybe it isn't. The point is, you try to cram as much of your freedom as you can into One Day or One Weekend, before you won't be able to do it again, for a very long time. So that's what i'm trying to do, here... In DC, i won't have a car, or access to one, for a while. I won't have Friends, around. I won't have my own place.

I will have easier access to some people i only rarely see. (Jack Off Jill - [Losing His Touch]). I will have the opportunity to get a car, and drive myself places, from now on. I will have my family, closer to me. For good or ill. I will have free food. I will also still have to pay rent, here, to keep my place. Not bills, only rent. I can't think about this all, right now... I'm going to go smoke... And, i mean, it's not like i'm going to be gone, forever... Right?

Sometimes i worry...

Later

Comments

[ladymerrydeath.livejournal.com]

We put ourselves in these model prisons. We make them to our own specifications...we raise the walls, put up the bars and close the doors all by ourselves. What we do not see is that we can break out of them with just a thought. The forest through the trees kind of thing...
...or maybe we just need a good leeching? *grin*

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think something fucked up is going around. Take care.

[raoin.livejournal.com]

no, not forever. nothing is truly forever.