Bad way to start a day...
Apr. 3rd, 2003 09:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Hookworm]--- So, the day started with words in my head that, honestly, i'd never want to hear, even if i weren't in a tenuously strange emotional place. And you're all thinking "And when Aren't you in one of those, Wolven?" And my answer is: Shut up. Anyway, the words were strange, and not for total public forum. They weren't that important. Even if they're true, Non-in/with does not negate whatever the strength of the thing Actually is. (POE - [Hey Pretty]). That's what the poem was there, for, and the strange things have been preluding... Testing... stabbing the little hurtful places... And you know what? I can out-wait, out-last, and out-shine(taint.darken) most anything. Period. A little application.
I got a high C (79), on that logic test. With as little time as you saw that i had, to study. (TDotHT - [Unstoppable]). Now that i have over Six Times as long to study Half as much Material, what does that say? Ass whooping, on the Logic Tip. Home-skillet. *shudder* Guh. Anyway.
Transcendence has hit, and i've realised that Yeah, i tell myself lots of things, to say that the pain will never come because i know, at the time, that i will get to that point again. I simply forget to stave it off. To remember the transience and impermanence. I let myself get wound around something that i already SAID Was going to change. Stupid me. (Voltaire - [Alchemy Mondays]). Been whining, again, instead of changing. Pain does and will happen, even if only for a few seconds. Cause Sartre was right. No matter how much we psyche ourselves up, we Will know angst, when we know Responsibility and choice. (Arrogant Worms - [The War of 1812]). So, quite honestly, there's the facticity of the Damnable Human Condition. Sometimes it's worth it... I still want to see a little Experiential Appreciation.
Cut my hand on a strand of Bamboo, today.. Not fun. Pretty deep. Pretty Healed, now. Took a Religions in Atlanta test, today, and a German Test, as well. Not too sure about the German, but i handed the Religion test its Ass. Need to Study more, instead of worrying about the social, quite so much, cause language, while quick, is not without it's Work. I need to Study it, and practice it, to keep Up with it. So i need to do that, these weeks. Need to make a fucking Time Table for my studying, and what not.
Voltaire - [Hello Cruel World]--- How oddly fucking apt. A sick sense of humour hath WinAmp. Anyway, they tried to deliver my new computer, today. I was a school. I was under the impression that when they said "Will Ship on April 4th," they meant that it would Leave, then. Not that it would Arrive... They'll try again, tomorrow, when i'll be here, so that's all gravy... I've got a new Computer! Woohoo! When a Computer is Mine, it's mine for Years. Last one lasted for five or Six, at a faster processing speed than the ones that were coming out around it. It had a Cyrex. Then it, one day, ground, scratched, coughed, and died. I like to think that it's in a better place... One day, i'll use it for an art piece.
A Perfect Circle - [The Hollow (Constantly Consuming Mix)]--- On that note, i'm going to head off of here. Here, have some test results:
I'm an apparently intelligent, liberal, tight as fuck, relatively well adjusted human being!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
Or
I'm a generally unfuckwitted, liberal, tight as fuck, relatively well adjusted human being!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
And i'm out, like leisure suits.
I got a high C (79), on that logic test. With as little time as you saw that i had, to study. (TDotHT - [Unstoppable]). Now that i have over Six Times as long to study Half as much Material, what does that say? Ass whooping, on the Logic Tip. Home-skillet. *shudder* Guh. Anyway.
Transcendence has hit, and i've realised that Yeah, i tell myself lots of things, to say that the pain will never come because i know, at the time, that i will get to that point again. I simply forget to stave it off. To remember the transience and impermanence. I let myself get wound around something that i already SAID Was going to change. Stupid me. (Voltaire - [Alchemy Mondays]). Been whining, again, instead of changing. Pain does and will happen, even if only for a few seconds. Cause Sartre was right. No matter how much we psyche ourselves up, we Will know angst, when we know Responsibility and choice. (Arrogant Worms - [The War of 1812]). So, quite honestly, there's the facticity of the Damnable Human Condition. Sometimes it's worth it... I still want to see a little Experiential Appreciation.
Cut my hand on a strand of Bamboo, today.. Not fun. Pretty deep. Pretty Healed, now. Took a Religions in Atlanta test, today, and a German Test, as well. Not too sure about the German, but i handed the Religion test its Ass. Need to Study more, instead of worrying about the social, quite so much, cause language, while quick, is not without it's Work. I need to Study it, and practice it, to keep Up with it. So i need to do that, these weeks. Need to make a fucking Time Table for my studying, and what not.
Voltaire - [Hello Cruel World]--- How oddly fucking apt. A sick sense of humour hath WinAmp. Anyway, they tried to deliver my new computer, today. I was a school. I was under the impression that when they said "Will Ship on April 4th," they meant that it would Leave, then. Not that it would Arrive... They'll try again, tomorrow, when i'll be here, so that's all gravy... I've got a new Computer! Woohoo! When a Computer is Mine, it's mine for Years. Last one lasted for five or Six, at a faster processing speed than the ones that were coming out around it. It had a Cyrex. Then it, one day, ground, scratched, coughed, and died. I like to think that it's in a better place... One day, i'll use it for an art piece.
A Perfect Circle - [The Hollow (Constantly Consuming Mix)]--- On that note, i'm going to head off of here. Here, have some test results:
I'm an apparently intelligent, liberal, tight as fuck, relatively well adjusted human being!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
Or
I'm a generally unfuckwitted, liberal, tight as fuck, relatively well adjusted human being!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
And i'm out, like leisure suits.
