It appears that i've lost you, again.

[wolven7]

You know where you are, at all times. You're right wherever the fuck you are. You know where other people are, too, cause they're right wherever the fuck they are. But knowing where they are, in relation to you, and vice versa, is where most of our problems come in. I had a party, on friday... No i didn't invite certain people, and you know what? It's good that i didn't, upon closer inspection. The End, of that. As for the rest of the party... It was Good... and it was Bad... and it was Odd... and, once again, at the end of their party-going experience, someone left my house angry with me, for attentions, and inattentions. *tick tock* I feel like time is turning backwards, sometimes, and whatever lessons i learn aren't the ones that i should have learned, the first time. Though, at the time, they were the ones being shoved at me, by the universe...

People aren't returning my phone calls. If you've ever felt like a wanderer in the darkness, pulling, rending, tearing the threads of all those around you, simply by your wandering, then know, now, that this is how i feel. I apologize for my transgressions, whatever they may have been (and don't think that, because of the ambiguity, there's less the Feeling), and i sincerely hope that you, whomever you are, can forgive me. But i'm not Sorry. Never sorry, these days.

Not for the things i've done, myself, anyway.

Showertime. Absolve the sins in the blood of the earth, and all that.

Comments

[angsty.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry i didn't come. i'm such a bad friend.

Re:

[wolven.livejournal.com]

You are not a bad friend. It's ok, many people didn't show, and that's fine. I'm not too worried about it. There will be many more parties, and mony more opportunities for people to be there. All people. I'm getting back into the practice of inviting everyone i know, whether thy like each other, or not. No worries.