wolven7 | An odd realisation. (Reply)

Deadsy - [Tom Sawyer]--- So, i'm talking to a friend of mine, and it's 4.30 in the gods besotted morning, and were talking about sexual topics. The Notion that many of my female friends don't find me that attractive has crossed my mind, more than once, and i know that it's not Entirely true. I also know that there are lots of things that keep me from being Less sexually and emotionally frustrated. Distance tends to be one of these things.

Deadsy - [Commencement]--- So she says to me, after i note that i haven't received fellatio in over two years, due to various factors, "you ever wish you were more attracted to someone your just not?" to which i say "Yeah. yeah i know exactly what you mean, there... oh well. If more of my female friends found me more attractive, maybe it wouldn't have been 2 and a half years, but what is is. I deal. That's why god invented masturbation." And yeah, that's true... But there are still things (Not to mention people) i want.

There is a thing, in me, now, that is on the thin, dark, blurred line that borders, weaves, and phases around, and throughout Obsession and Love. (Deadsy - [Flowing Glower]). I haven't been here, in quite some time... Nothing's driven me here, to this strange place where everything is thought and re-thought, and you don't know how to take certain things... Not the things that are said to you, mind you, but the things you, yourself, say. Does it cross that line? Is the Fabled Land even on the other Side of that line, or is it merely where you've been before? What's new? What's different? Where are the border-lands, nd are the guards friendly and understanding? Why are you questioning what you once Knew to be true, in a different form? (Deadsy - [Le Cirque En Rose (Obsolescence)]). Because these places are non-Euclidean, in their implications...

I've made a few mistakes, i think, and i've freaked out a few people with the level of forthcoming-ness, i've displayed. But i don't think i'd have it any other way...

I've realised that i Like it here, and that, with a few adjustments, and the proper understanding, i could like it here, for quite some time. So i'm without physical contact... There are days when i loathe the thought of that, so who am I to complain, now? Besides, it's like i said: That's why god invented Masturbation.

Relish what you've read. I may not ever talk about it, here, again. :P

I'm off to read "Midnight Nation." 2.03 hours left at work.

Dream Well

{Addendum, Days later: By the way, i'd just like to note: What a Fucked Up Thread of Comments, on this. Apparently, my caveats need to extend from my comments, to myself, as well... *Note to self, no more emotionally revealing topics. All i get is people talking about me, getting and being naked.*}