Covetounsness
Jan. 4th, 2003 03:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7Dear WOLVEN,
Today you are likely to spend much of the day solving problems, WOLVEN, both your own and those of your friends. You are a natural mediator, and your talents may be called upon to settle a dispute. Listen carefully to both sides, and then propose the solution that makes the most sense to you. Your ideas are likely to be embraced by both parties. At home, try to make amends with your romantic partner. If your relationship has cooled somewhat, see if you can't heat it up a bit tonight.
First of all, i just want to say Thank you, to everyone who replied to that last post... I was looking for replies, but not so much of the reciprocation... *hugs* to all of you. I really appreciate the time you all take, whenever you can, to read this stuff, here.
On another note, a friend of mine brought a concept to me, yesterday. The concept that Everyone has a sin that they perform more often than any other. I'm not going to say that it's unequivocally true, but i did realise that, for me, the sin would be Covetousness. I want that which is most noticeably lacking, in my life, and is around me, most often. "And how do we begin to covet, Clarice?... We covet what we see every day." So, for me, it generally has to do with Sex, and relationships... Not only do i Covet, though, i also resent. Thus the Jealousy. When people take what they have, for granted, and don't understand that there are people, around who've had worse times than they, it pisses me off, and i get a little surly. Now, you all may be wondering why i, of all the people you experience, would be worrying about Sin. Because, my friends, as long as i have One sin, above all others, i'm not well rounded enough.
It's not a question of doing what's wrong, or right. It's that the Coveting is holding me back, in a myriad ways, and i'm not as balanced as i should be. Funny. We use the word "Rounded" to mean balance. Circles. Spheres. Serpents eating t heir own tails... Anyway, if i'm not balanced, then i should be. If i'm focused on what i don't have that others do have, then i'm just going to be wallowing in self-pity. Many people have specific experiences that i would like... but they may or may not ever come to pass. Oh well. C'est La Vie. These things are Important to me-- I won't deny that-- but all experiences are important to me.. i don't want to spend my life, thinking about the Non experiences, while i could be out Having as many experiences, as possible. And i'll not regret the things i've Done, but those i did not do. And perhaps the nuclear fallout, afterward. That's always sad.
I saw "Bound," yesterday... It was an amazing movie. Neo-Noir. Made me feel great, all day. Then, later, i saw Two of the "Prophecy" movies, on the Action channel... Lucifer, in the Prophecy, was amazing. He was Viggo Mortensen! ^_^!! Aragorn was Lucifer! {I had Completely forgotten this fact...} And he did a wonderful job, actually... Very much the cynic, and the "I've got it figured, and you never will, so run along and play." Best quotes from him were: "God? God is Love. I don't Love you." And, giggling: "Little Tommy Daggett.. I used to Love listening to your prayers at night... And then you'd hop into bed, afraid that i was under there, waiting to grab you... And I WAS!" Absolutely amazing, great stuff. :)
On another note, entirely, the Cubs haven't won the Pennant, so we're ok, for at least another year, but it Snowed in Georgia, yesterday. Not much, and it didn't stick, of course, but it still snowed... "Look upon my works, ye mighty, and Fear," kind of thing.... I think i'll tell you about my dream.
There's something about an avatar, and a Snake, and Serpents. Wanting to Come to the Awakened world.
I'm in an apartment that is Like my apartment, only reversed, and shifted, slightly to the east, in the building. It no longer quite lined up. The kitchen now has a window, to outside, and there is a dwarf, in the Tolkien sense, in my house. He's with this oddly statuesque blonde, and there's something strange about her, and about all of them. We're all cartoons. Wily E. Coyote is wandering around, and he has the red nose, and the Culture, from when he was in the episodes with Bugs Bunny. I have to go into my room, which is now on the other side of the living room, and around the corner/alcove, that used to be the foyer, to outside. I'm in my room, on my computer, and people are talking about sex. I go back out into the living room, and the blonde is on the floor, naked, and masturbating. Because she is naked, she no longer looks like a cartoon. Everyone is simply watching her masturbate, and then, the door from Padraig's house is there, on the wall that used to be the hallway to the bedrooms, and someone's coming in.
Fuzzy.
I'm walking down the stairs from my dad's old house on 13th and F in D.C. I barely recognise the interior of the house, but there is a couch, next to the wall, against a banister. Tori Amos is sitting on the couch. I have just come from my room, which is now upstairs, where i was getting the Faery book that Elizabeth gave me for Christmas, and we're looking at the book, and i'm taking care of things in the Kitchen, and the downstairs is still sett up, pretty much the same. I come back to the couch and Tori says "Did you show me this, because it has a lot of artists, in it, that i've used for my CDs?" And i say "Yes, well, that, and because i thought you'd enjoy the Pretty Pictures." She laughs, and smiles, and i'm back, in a field, which is a war room, thinking about Avatars, and snakes. I wake up
It didn't feel like it was My dream, last night. It felt like i was dreaming through Cotton, and in someone else's head. That's what i get for watching The Prophecy, and then Heather Chandler's death scene, in Heathers, then reading "The Talisman," directly before going to bed. And i fully accept my consequences. I'm simply surprised i was able to remember that much of it.
I'm going to head out, and do some stuff. Talk to you all, later.
Day Dream
Today you are likely to spend much of the day solving problems, WOLVEN, both your own and those of your friends. You are a natural mediator, and your talents may be called upon to settle a dispute. Listen carefully to both sides, and then propose the solution that makes the most sense to you. Your ideas are likely to be embraced by both parties. At home, try to make amends with your romantic partner. If your relationship has cooled somewhat, see if you can't heat it up a bit tonight.
First of all, i just want to say Thank you, to everyone who replied to that last post... I was looking for replies, but not so much of the reciprocation... *hugs* to all of you. I really appreciate the time you all take, whenever you can, to read this stuff, here.
On another note, a friend of mine brought a concept to me, yesterday. The concept that Everyone has a sin that they perform more often than any other. I'm not going to say that it's unequivocally true, but i did realise that, for me, the sin would be Covetousness. I want that which is most noticeably lacking, in my life, and is around me, most often. "And how do we begin to covet, Clarice?... We covet what we see every day." So, for me, it generally has to do with Sex, and relationships... Not only do i Covet, though, i also resent. Thus the Jealousy. When people take what they have, for granted, and don't understand that there are people, around who've had worse times than they, it pisses me off, and i get a little surly. Now, you all may be wondering why i, of all the people you experience, would be worrying about Sin. Because, my friends, as long as i have One sin, above all others, i'm not well rounded enough.
It's not a question of doing what's wrong, or right. It's that the Coveting is holding me back, in a myriad ways, and i'm not as balanced as i should be. Funny. We use the word "Rounded" to mean balance. Circles. Spheres. Serpents eating t heir own tails... Anyway, if i'm not balanced, then i should be. If i'm focused on what i don't have that others do have, then i'm just going to be wallowing in self-pity. Many people have specific experiences that i would like... but they may or may not ever come to pass. Oh well. C'est La Vie. These things are Important to me-- I won't deny that-- but all experiences are important to me.. i don't want to spend my life, thinking about the Non experiences, while i could be out Having as many experiences, as possible. And i'll not regret the things i've Done, but those i did not do. And perhaps the nuclear fallout, afterward. That's always sad.
I saw "Bound," yesterday... It was an amazing movie. Neo-Noir. Made me feel great, all day. Then, later, i saw Two of the "Prophecy" movies, on the Action channel... Lucifer, in the Prophecy, was amazing. He was Viggo Mortensen! ^_^!! Aragorn was Lucifer! {I had Completely forgotten this fact...} And he did a wonderful job, actually... Very much the cynic, and the "I've got it figured, and you never will, so run along and play." Best quotes from him were: "God? God is Love. I don't Love you." And, giggling: "Little Tommy Daggett.. I used to Love listening to your prayers at night... And then you'd hop into bed, afraid that i was under there, waiting to grab you... And I WAS!" Absolutely amazing, great stuff. :)
On another note, entirely, the Cubs haven't won the Pennant, so we're ok, for at least another year, but it Snowed in Georgia, yesterday. Not much, and it didn't stick, of course, but it still snowed... "Look upon my works, ye mighty, and Fear," kind of thing.... I think i'll tell you about my dream.
There's something about an avatar, and a Snake, and Serpents. Wanting to Come to the Awakened world.
I'm in an apartment that is Like my apartment, only reversed, and shifted, slightly to the east, in the building. It no longer quite lined up. The kitchen now has a window, to outside, and there is a dwarf, in the Tolkien sense, in my house. He's with this oddly statuesque blonde, and there's something strange about her, and about all of them. We're all cartoons. Wily E. Coyote is wandering around, and he has the red nose, and the Culture, from when he was in the episodes with Bugs Bunny. I have to go into my room, which is now on the other side of the living room, and around the corner/alcove, that used to be the foyer, to outside. I'm in my room, on my computer, and people are talking about sex. I go back out into the living room, and the blonde is on the floor, naked, and masturbating. Because she is naked, she no longer looks like a cartoon. Everyone is simply watching her masturbate, and then, the door from Padraig's house is there, on the wall that used to be the hallway to the bedrooms, and someone's coming in.
Fuzzy.
I'm walking down the stairs from my dad's old house on 13th and F in D.C. I barely recognise the interior of the house, but there is a couch, next to the wall, against a banister. Tori Amos is sitting on the couch. I have just come from my room, which is now upstairs, where i was getting the Faery book that Elizabeth gave me for Christmas, and we're looking at the book, and i'm taking care of things in the Kitchen, and the downstairs is still sett up, pretty much the same. I come back to the couch and Tori says "Did you show me this, because it has a lot of artists, in it, that i've used for my CDs?" And i say "Yes, well, that, and because i thought you'd enjoy the Pretty Pictures." She laughs, and smiles, and i'm back, in a field, which is a war room, thinking about Avatars, and snakes. I wake up
It didn't feel like it was My dream, last night. It felt like i was dreaming through Cotton, and in someone else's head. That's what i get for watching The Prophecy, and then Heather Chandler's death scene, in Heathers, then reading "The Talisman," directly before going to bed. And i fully accept my consequences. I'm simply surprised i was able to remember that much of it.
I'm going to head out, and do some stuff. Talk to you all, later.
Day Dream
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2003-01-04 06:49 pm (UTC)Wow....i never thought i'd hear you say that....i remember a time (was it a couple years ago at most? maybe not even that long...) when you insisted on being unbalanced the majority of the time, because you couldn't function properly or the way you wanted to while being balanced...balance for you was quite undesireable at the time....you even seemed a bit annoyed when i disagreed with you on that...it's interesting to see that you now value and seek it. :-)
-sister anonymou
Re:
Date: 2003-01-05 11:50 am (UTC)If i can be completely aligned, without destroying Creation, that's good. That means i still get a choice. *hugs* talk to you soon.