Needs and wants.

I need a new computer. My laptop and desktop are abominably slow, due to lower RAM than is industry standard. At least 75% lower, and that's only assuming a standard 1GB of RAM. In the case of the laptop, this means that trying to run more than one or two applications, Small applications, at a time, locks up the system in waves of competing protocols, for literal hours at a time. Yes. So. New computers.

I want a new car stereo. My CD player has ceased function, it has no tape deck, no auxilliary jack, I hate commercial radio, and NPR news isn't available 24/7. So, new car CD player.

I need a tune up and brake job, on my car. The Meineke place where I got my oil change quoted me ~$200, for the plugs and points job, plus whatever it cost for the front brakes. So, really, more like $350. As this car is the only car I'll have, for the foreseeable future, I should probably get this done, soon.

I want a paying job where I feel a sense of mutual respect between management, employees, and clients/customers, rather than lipservice paid to the idea of respect which is shown, time and again, to fail in actual practice. A place where the potential for and of interaction is nutured and feed, rather than patently ignored.

I need to get apply for and get into a fully funded Ph.D that I can stomach for the length of time it takes to turn it into something I can vaguely stand, and then get out. Apparently, I need the piece of paper, in order to even begin doing what I'm trying to do, or I need a great many more connections who are willing to help me, than are currently making themselves known.

I want powerful high-profile friends who are willing to put themselves on the line to support the things in which I believe. Sweeping educational reforms, new curriculum elements, political ethics, things like that.

I need to be a powerfully high-profile person, so that I can use my clout to support the things my friends care about.

I want more people to realise that, to paraphrse what Simon Peg said, a few days ago, celebrity is a consequence, and not an end.

I need to write, more.

A pure heart. A Peaceful Soul

"A bigger gun."

What Has been, What Is, What Will Be.

Today I will be productive. I will be creative. I will be astounding and amazing and fabulous, and the entire world will GASP to see it.

I will make more of this world than when I found it. I will take from this world so muchc more than it thinks it can bear to lose. I will spin and weave, sustain and encourage, and I will show my true face to the people I encounter.

I will make of this place everything that I can. I will treat myself as I would treat all others, and the converse is also true. By this path will people see in themselves the ability to see in themselves. And i will erase my footsteps.

And when I'm done, all onlookers will say, "There. That Man. Who Is He, That We May Follow Him?" But where they point will only be what I was.

What I am, here, and now, always more than what I have done. Always less than I can be. Today.