"You be like: 'Hello Nasty, where you been? It's time you brought the grimy beats out the dungeon.'"

Beastie Boys - Putting Shame in Your Game--- I've been in the shittiest of moods, today. Only that's not quite right. I've been in the Meanest of moods. I was rude to customers, but in a way that wasn't rudeness; it was only the truth, and they needed to fucking hear it. Nice people got nice me, rude people got their asses handed to them... I think it's a bad sign when you constantly imagine things like putting your customers' heads through the glass casing, or taking a shovel to the back of some stupid fuck's head. (VNV Nation - [Honour]). But hey: That's retail.

It's not the brightest of days, today, and i find myself warm-- verging on hot, truth be told-- in fucking January. I've no problem with warm weather. But i didn't get my snow. I know that this means that the coming winter/spring border months are goig to be hellish, and turbulent, for weather, as well as other things, but fuck you, i want my snow. Everything smelled like home, today, in that spring-when-I-was-eight kind of way. Very strange.

I find myself, also, sympathising with the worst parts of people, and wanting to watch them indulge. It's another spike, on the Temptation and Corruption meter. And i know that many will think ill of me, for it, or maybe... whatever, but i simply don't feel that bad, for the earthquake/tsunami victims. I feel... bad, yes, but not frought with grief, and horror. I'm more awestruck, than anything, and that is directed toward the force itself. In much the same way, i'm awestruck at snow in a place where it's never snowed, in currently-held human historical record. (Deadsy - [Tom Sawyer (Rush Cover)]). Weird shit is happening, and nature/the world/the universe is giving us things we'd never thought we'd see, and every single corner (science, religions, spiritualists, occultists, technoc{r}ats) are getting to say "See?! I Told you so..."

So why haven't more of us starting working toward First Causes, or the Infinite Regress, which ever comes first? If Ka is a wheel, if God is everywhere and created everything, if the Tao is the Tao, if the universe is the Uni Verse then all things reside within, and the only thing that makes any of it ok, for us, is living it, and changing, a bit at a time. Or not. Either way, it's all still what it is, and will continue to be so, unless and until it's not, any longer. Or maybe just for a moment.

I'm out.

So, I'm on some metaphysically-oriented e-mail lists....

Tool - [Ænema]--- I'm on a few weblists, and, on one of these, the following question was posed:

> I have heard some rather negative predictions around about what is
> coming for the year ahead from different sources.
> Could be all of the natural disasters that have struck the world at
> the start of the year. The Tsunami, the earthquakes ect.
> What say ya???

To which i responded:

'I say "It's about fucking time." It's taken too long to get to this point of flux and change and actual potential growth, in this world, that people can actually grasp it and do something with it. I also say "IA! IA! Cthulhu Ftaghn!" Yes. Yes. Cthulhu Dreams.

'Semi-kidding aside, it's a time of breakage, and will, in the world, and i really wish that more people would take it and run with, instead of fucking sitting around, twiddling their thumbs. Yes, this is a harsh expression, but it's true. We sit around with our thumbs up our bums, for too long, and we're screwed left, down, and sideways.

' http://toolshed.down.net/lyrics/aenimamaster.html

'Track 13, most of the way down the page.

'Yes, it's very sad that many people are dying, and yeah, something scary as hell is right around the corner. With any luck it's a damned mirror.'

Tool - [Third Eye]--- What say ye, ye brethren of Cannan? Or something... I await dialogue.