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Jack Off Jill - [Underjoyed]--- Every day, in Every way, i'm getting better, and better. I'm feeling a lot more... Discriminating, recently. I'm plying the layers of things, and i'm ripping apart what i see, there. I'm starting to understand the Certain Whys of what people believe, and where they are, but i'm also starting to be a little confused as to what The FUCK motivated them. No. That's wrong. I know what motviates them. I simply think that the motivations are idiotic. The judgements are always poor, and the evidence is faulty. Senses lie, and feelings tell us exactly what we want to hear.
Gin Blossoms - [Till I Hear It From You]--- Here's what i mean. I'm always trying to understand the Why of what you've done, what i do, who we are, and how. The thing of it is, the reasons that i'm Always making this search, Well, it's because i don't Accept, even though i understand. I think that the reasons don't make sense. Simply because something Follows, one thing from another, does not mean that the choice, there made, is one that Should Stand. Yes, it is one that "Should" have been made, because anything that Happens, "Should" have happened, other wise it wouldn't have happened, but that doesn't mean that it has to Stay a certain way, until It Does. It stays, until we change it, and needs to stray (Stay, i mean), no longer, than that. (DaVinci's Notebook & Moxy Früvous - [Shoehorn With Teeth]). "Because he knows there's no such thing." Are my goals impossible? I don't think so. Remember i believe in the possibility of everything, even impossibility.
Moxy Früvous - [Horseshoes]--- There are things, here, that really need to be discussed. there are certain factors that, to me, don't make a damn bit of Sense. Yes, like i said, i can see where it came from, but that doesn't make it make actual sense. I can't accept it, as a way things Will be. Yes, as a way things Are. But there is Change in the What Is. There is always change. And there is change, right now. There is amazing change. There are people finding themselves, losing themselves, searching, forgetting,. fucking, screwing, de-valuing themselves, because they feel that they need to do that, right now. Because they [don't] deserve it. (Snake River Conspiracy - [You and Your Friend]). There is the loss of personal integrity, and people changing things about themselves, left and right, and not knowing why they feel a little "Off." Some of them. Certain Cats and and kittens need not apply. But what i'm saying is that perhaps, maybe, if only they would look, they would see that there is a change, there, that they don't quite fully understand. Something that got changed because it was expected of them to change. Something that was, in effect, a bowing to an external pressure, and you know that that pipeline bursts eventually. But you've forgotten the release valve.
Mystic Knights of the Oingo Boingo - [Some of These Days]--- There is always a personal pressure release. An internal structure that allows you to say Fuck You, and find yourself, again. Find your pressure balance, and stay at the keel you want. And it's the You, ("that is on this adventure") that can do this. Turn that Valve. Find that switch. And then there's the Denial. There's always the denial. The ideal that No, you aren't bowing out, you aren't caving in. Bullshit. We all are, every day, to some extent. Because otherwise there would Be no common society. I was watching something the other day, and they were talking about a Common reality... Oh, right "Lord of Illusions." (Björk - [Play Dead]). Talking about how, if we didn't agree on what was real, we would all crack. I think that we're stronger than that, deep down, in our cores. We're simply lazy, and tired, and we like things to be easy. So we take the consentual hallucination route. We agree on our surroundings, and we opt out. But that's not the way it Has to be, always. Sure, we can have the General Consensus, and agree on the way things are Most of the time, but what about the Other times? Why can't we know that things are Both ways? That there is the "Reality" of the masses, and the Reality of the personal perception? And make those Mesh, somehow. Fancy, i know. But something to which we, in my opinion (obviously), should aspire. Goals.
Jack Off Jill - [Girlscout]--- I'm sittting around, these days, wondering at the Spirit of this age, the Soul of the core. And i'm saddened, a lot of the time, to note the cheapening, the passing of a lot of ideals for the flash and the bright, the dark edge, but not the depth of darkness. And I wonder what happened, and then i Know, if i look. But that's not my point, right now. My point, right now, is that a Lot of people are in a Lot of places, and i know this. I read it, see it, hear it, feel it, even when they refuse to out and out say it. Because they Do. People want to be prodded cajoled, begged to pour out their misery, upon the other, because people don't Mean it, when they ask "So how are you?" But they should. Cause that's where the phrase came from. Another reason to know your Roots. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Rock Lords]). I see the places people are, and so on, and i watch how they forget who they are and don't bother to mark the passing with respect for what it was, what it taught, what it knew. I'm talking in Universals, now, people. And a couple of Singularities.
There are unknown motivations, as per always. We hide from ourselves what we don't want/have time and/or patience to Hear. (David Bowie - [I Have Not Been to Oxford]). And that's not new. That's not some revelation i'm dumping on you, from on High. Not Your God. That's me saying what you expect. Here's what you may or may not care to hear. It's Bullshit. All of it. Every motivating tale, every explaination, every Have To, Must, Can't, Forbidden, Commanded. All Bullshit. The outside pressure is projected, in many many ways. It's all You. Your choices and consequences. What you Want, what you Prefer. And that's Fine. I Swear to God, it's FINE. It's ok that you don't want to be a certain way, or do certain things, or live a life. But for Fuck's Sake, accept that, As the What Is, When it is. Let it Be, and take your medicine.
Mystic Knights of the Oingo Boingo - [Ballad of the Caveman]--- And, please, know when it's time to Change. Know the Why's of what you're doing. They reasons behind it. Accept what you want, and from whence it Flowed. If you Don't accept it, then Change it.
Prodigy - [Breathe]--- That's tonight's rant. I may not have made any sense, to any of you, but i needed to say it, or i was going to fucking Kill You.
Later.
Dream Well
Gin Blossoms - [Till I Hear It From You]--- Here's what i mean. I'm always trying to understand the Why of what you've done, what i do, who we are, and how. The thing of it is, the reasons that i'm Always making this search, Well, it's because i don't Accept, even though i understand. I think that the reasons don't make sense. Simply because something Follows, one thing from another, does not mean that the choice, there made, is one that Should Stand. Yes, it is one that "Should" have been made, because anything that Happens, "Should" have happened, other wise it wouldn't have happened, but that doesn't mean that it has to Stay a certain way, until It Does. It stays, until we change it, and needs to stray (Stay, i mean), no longer, than that. (DaVinci's Notebook & Moxy Früvous - [Shoehorn With Teeth]). "Because he knows there's no such thing." Are my goals impossible? I don't think so. Remember i believe in the possibility of everything, even impossibility.
Moxy Früvous - [Horseshoes]--- There are things, here, that really need to be discussed. there are certain factors that, to me, don't make a damn bit of Sense. Yes, like i said, i can see where it came from, but that doesn't make it make actual sense. I can't accept it, as a way things Will be. Yes, as a way things Are. But there is Change in the What Is. There is always change. And there is change, right now. There is amazing change. There are people finding themselves, losing themselves, searching, forgetting,. fucking, screwing, de-valuing themselves, because they feel that they need to do that, right now. Because they [don't] deserve it. (Snake River Conspiracy - [You and Your Friend]). There is the loss of personal integrity, and people changing things about themselves, left and right, and not knowing why they feel a little "Off." Some of them. Certain Cats and and kittens need not apply. But what i'm saying is that perhaps, maybe, if only they would look, they would see that there is a change, there, that they don't quite fully understand. Something that got changed because it was expected of them to change. Something that was, in effect, a bowing to an external pressure, and you know that that pipeline bursts eventually. But you've forgotten the release valve.
Mystic Knights of the Oingo Boingo - [Some of These Days]--- There is always a personal pressure release. An internal structure that allows you to say Fuck You, and find yourself, again. Find your pressure balance, and stay at the keel you want. And it's the You, ("that is on this adventure") that can do this. Turn that Valve. Find that switch. And then there's the Denial. There's always the denial. The ideal that No, you aren't bowing out, you aren't caving in. Bullshit. We all are, every day, to some extent. Because otherwise there would Be no common society. I was watching something the other day, and they were talking about a Common reality... Oh, right "Lord of Illusions." (Björk - [Play Dead]). Talking about how, if we didn't agree on what was real, we would all crack. I think that we're stronger than that, deep down, in our cores. We're simply lazy, and tired, and we like things to be easy. So we take the consentual hallucination route. We agree on our surroundings, and we opt out. But that's not the way it Has to be, always. Sure, we can have the General Consensus, and agree on the way things are Most of the time, but what about the Other times? Why can't we know that things are Both ways? That there is the "Reality" of the masses, and the Reality of the personal perception? And make those Mesh, somehow. Fancy, i know. But something to which we, in my opinion (obviously), should aspire. Goals.
Jack Off Jill - [Girlscout]--- I'm sittting around, these days, wondering at the Spirit of this age, the Soul of the core. And i'm saddened, a lot of the time, to note the cheapening, the passing of a lot of ideals for the flash and the bright, the dark edge, but not the depth of darkness. And I wonder what happened, and then i Know, if i look. But that's not my point, right now. My point, right now, is that a Lot of people are in a Lot of places, and i know this. I read it, see it, hear it, feel it, even when they refuse to out and out say it. Because they Do. People want to be prodded cajoled, begged to pour out their misery, upon the other, because people don't Mean it, when they ask "So how are you?" But they should. Cause that's where the phrase came from. Another reason to know your Roots. (Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - [Rock Lords]). I see the places people are, and so on, and i watch how they forget who they are and don't bother to mark the passing with respect for what it was, what it taught, what it knew. I'm talking in Universals, now, people. And a couple of Singularities.
There are unknown motivations, as per always. We hide from ourselves what we don't want/have time and/or patience to Hear. (David Bowie - [I Have Not Been to Oxford]). And that's not new. That's not some revelation i'm dumping on you, from on High. Not Your God. That's me saying what you expect. Here's what you may or may not care to hear. It's Bullshit. All of it. Every motivating tale, every explaination, every Have To, Must, Can't, Forbidden, Commanded. All Bullshit. The outside pressure is projected, in many many ways. It's all You. Your choices and consequences. What you Want, what you Prefer. And that's Fine. I Swear to God, it's FINE. It's ok that you don't want to be a certain way, or do certain things, or live a life. But for Fuck's Sake, accept that, As the What Is, When it is. Let it Be, and take your medicine.
Mystic Knights of the Oingo Boingo - [Ballad of the Caveman]--- And, please, know when it's time to Change. Know the Why's of what you're doing. They reasons behind it. Accept what you want, and from whence it Flowed. If you Don't accept it, then Change it.
Prodigy - [Breathe]--- That's tonight's rant. I may not have made any sense, to any of you, but i needed to say it, or i was going to fucking Kill You.
Later.
Dream Well
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