
Rasputina - [The New Zero]--- I feel strangely... Pissed the Hell Off, this morning. I think it's got something to do with the fact that my neighbours were pounding Nails into the walls, when i got to sleep, thusly making me think that there was someone at my door. So i got up, too tired to stop myself. (TDotHT - [Shoggoths Away]). I dreamed of a place where carpentry was law, or some such nonsense. Nonsense as related to This place. {Addendum. 2.11 am, 3.1.03: Remembered that there was also something about an apartment building, which has been there before, but is out in the woods, and kind of has the coutyard set up, like Melrose Place, but is one level, and... Well, it's ver dark, and there's a distinctly Navajo feel, to the whole thing. Fire, ion the middle, that seemed to fill the whole thing, like it was a fire pit, until you got closer, and were inside it, and the fire was small, and most of the light was lights form homes. Circular.} I'm really displeased... Really
So i'm reading House of Leaves, right? And it's supposed to be a really creepy, very intrusive, highly affecting book. And it's pretty creepy. It's trying to worm it's way into my head. And it's certainly making me think (Which i appreciate). But, other than that... What? What am i supposed to be getting? The fact that people have to think of things, on the inside, being the same as they are outside, or the entire universe falls apart, is vaguely disappointing... (Ben Folds Five - [Brick]). Hell, fuck "vague", it's really disappointing. I don't like that certain books and texts, simply by showing something they've never seen, can cause all of these problems in people, that people cannot accept this AND that, Where this and that are two supposedly opposing views. Show me why, in the grand scheme of a universe this large, complexe, and beyond our human comprehension, as yet, show me why 2 cannot equal 8. I want to see it... Honestly... Show me where it says so, and then i'll show you why that's meaningless. If you believe me or not, make no difference to me, today, because i'll have showed you, and it'll be there, lurking in that part of your subconscious that you like to hide... It'll drive you towards something. Never fear.
Danny Elfman - [Ode To Joy (A Clockwork Orange)]--- There's recently been a lot of talk, in my philosophy classes, that not enough metaphysical standpoints have a mathematical, or scientific bent, to them. And i think that's crap. Every metaphysical stand point that claims to declare the way the universe IS has, by it's endeavour, to include everything within the universe. Or, at the very least, every perceived thing in the universe. You must touch on the nature of the mind, mathematics, scientific proofs, and religion, because these things are all perceived within the world. (Violent Femmes - [Add It Up]). Universe. Whatever. World, as a term, can mean more than the physical sphere we inhabit. But nothing more than that. World is the extent of our perception. Or Our perceived limit... Bah.
Arrogance and Anger. I've been pissing people off, a lot, recently. {Correction. 4.13: kideneythieves - [Feathers]--- The previous sentence in untrue, as i now see it, but it shall stay. To be True, is should read, "I'm getting pissed off at people, a lot, recently." Please forgive the mistake.} I've also been whining about the morally dirty nature of HumanWar, far too much for my own tastes. What's to understand? Everything. And if you're paralyzed to inaction by that, then you don't need to be on the battle field. God says go home. It'll tell you why, later.
I'm too pissed off. I'm going to go smoke, and shower, and prepare for the day.
Tschuzs