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So here i am. Working my happy little ass off. Had a D&D game tonyte, went ok. Lots of other shit going on, in life, and i'm ok with that. There's Common Ground, now. And you know what? People are accepting the 'what is.' And that ALWAYS makes me smile. There's other shiot i could and want to talk about, but i don't know how to make it make sense to the people who aren't living it. That's all for now.

Good Nyte.

Dream Well.

Cinnamon Spider

My life works like this: Think of a spider building a web. The spider needs to cast out connections, go from point to point, make the web strong, and make sure that whatever it is that it's trying to catch will get caught.

A small digression: In life we connect to various people on various levels. Family connects to you on an emotional level, primarily. Friends are often emotional connections, but mainly they stay within the realm of mental connections. These are ALL generalisations, with the understanding that things are going to vary, person to person. Back to this point. Your priest or other Spiritual advisor-type has this weird connection that's based in the mental, emotional, AND the Spiritual places. The weird thing about this is that, because of the varying connections, here, there is the higher likelihood of it being WEAKER, rather than stronger.They're trying to get you on all of these levels, and thye all only get a little.

NOW! With these models in mind, let us, again, look at how my life works. Firstly, physical distance has little to do with this. Some of the people i'm MOST connected to are over 600 miles away. So there's THAT. Second, to return to the spiderweb metaphor, Some of the connections are not as good as others, for varying reasons. Scratch that; they're all good, for differing purposes. Sometymes a rock, sometymes a tree, oft-tymes a WIND BLOWN LEAF, will be or appear a suitable connection point. Unless i, as the spider, am looking for my quary to completely slip through my grasp, i need solid stable things.

In this casting, in the past, it has never occured to me that it might be better for me to simply sever some strands, rather than let them hang loose, where the simplest breeze is able to do my over-all goal serious harm. It has occured to me, today.

As i said above, people connect with and affect us in varying ways. This is wonderful. Variety. Spice of life. All that shit. Now, there are the ones who aren't quite there, or anywhere, yet. They have a tennative connection with you. They are the goal. Their actions, their moods, &c., these are the winds that change your course. Or that may make you decide to change said course. With these, it may be easier to cut whatever loose tie there is, and start over. Either with that person, or somewhere else, entirely.

This little spider's goal is communication and understanding and Justice and a whole bunch of other shit that i've talked about, at length. No mas, ese noche. This requires BEING CONNECTED! But the stress and the strain of the wind on these loose little pieces of shit fragments... They can hurt, more than the full connections being severed, and that's saying a LOT. i love you all, who read this, even if i don't fucking know you. i'd like my web to be stronger, please.

Some people tell me i know too many people. Some people say i spread myself thin. Some people say i don't know enough people, and that if i knew more i could yell at them all.

i say i know enough people for THIS INSTANT. The instant i meet someone new, that number goes up by one. And i cast out a new strand. And Hope.

Good Nyte.

Dream Well