"...until you bleed."
May. 26th, 2012 11:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wolven7What are you?
What do you want to do?
What do you want to be?
What do you worry no one will accept?
I'm a monster. A magician. A wizard. A teacher. An adorer of science.
I want to write and think and talk about magic and depravity and sinuous wonder and world-warping perceptions and show people how learning and understanding more about any and everything is the better part of being and becoming.
I want to be unapologetically who and what I am. I want to be the kind of person who simply Is and Does and Knows. I want to be able to know that what I am and want to do will hurt others, to be able to weigh that in the balance, and Be Myself Anyway.
I worry that no one will accept... that. All of that. Me. And the fact that I worry about it at all is the key that fuels that last want.
I don't know if you know it, but you're important to me. You matter to me. If you ask me what it is I "get" from knowing you, you'll most likely get a detailed answer. Sure, in some cases, the answer is "more data needed," but even the fact that I'm still gathering the data should tell you something, right?
I want to build a city or an island, or whatever, with little individually climate-control domes, and I want to populate this place with everyone I know, and keep you around, all the time, and also not have to see you, ever, if you don't want to be seen.
This is losing the thread.
I want to rule this world, if only so I have the time to not have to worry about work and bullshit, and can just cook and talk and laugh and debauch and deprave with friends, forever.
What do you want to do?
What do you want to be?
What do you worry no one will accept?
I'm a monster. A magician. A wizard. A teacher. An adorer of science.
I want to write and think and talk about magic and depravity and sinuous wonder and world-warping perceptions and show people how learning and understanding more about any and everything is the better part of being and becoming.
I want to be unapologetically who and what I am. I want to be the kind of person who simply Is and Does and Knows. I want to be able to know that what I am and want to do will hurt others, to be able to weigh that in the balance, and Be Myself Anyway.
I worry that no one will accept... that. All of that. Me. And the fact that I worry about it at all is the key that fuels that last want.
I don't know if you know it, but you're important to me. You matter to me. If you ask me what it is I "get" from knowing you, you'll most likely get a detailed answer. Sure, in some cases, the answer is "more data needed," but even the fact that I'm still gathering the data should tell you something, right?
I want to build a city or an island, or whatever, with little individually climate-control domes, and I want to populate this place with everyone I know, and keep you around, all the time, and also not have to see you, ever, if you don't want to be seen.
This is losing the thread.
I want to rule this world, if only so I have the time to not have to worry about work and bullshit, and can just cook and talk and laugh and debauch and deprave with friends, forever.
