A little something, to make me feel better

[wolven7]

$$$$$$$$> It's unpleasant, but I don''t draw The Tower with every reading I do for you for nothing.
Wolven_Death`of`Universes> LOL
Wolven_Death`of`Universes> It's one of my Three Cards
Wolven_Death`of`Universes> Tower, Death, Chariot
$$$$$$$$> I know.
$$$$$$$$> But isn't it for a reason? :P
$$$$$$$$> You don't do change subtly.

and in another window, at the same time:

Wolven_Death`of`Universes> i don't like this Pattern
[00:38] * `*****` nods
[00:39] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> but there is already one key difference in this pattern.
[00:39] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> My level of control and my now HORRIDLY BLATANT honesty
[00:39] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> That, in and of itself, will burn the whole thing down, if it doesn't go the way i like
[00:43] `*****`> that is a good thing isn't it?
[00:43] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> Yup
[00:44] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> Because it will change, or it will change VIOLENTLY, and i will WIn.
[00:44] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> Right $$$$3?
[00:44] $$$$$$$$> :P
[00:44] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> heheh
$$$$$$$$> Irony. Gotta love it.
[00:45] Wolven_Death`of`Universes> Damn right.

More things on which i must keep my will and drive focused and clear. Gooood.... *Evil Grin*

Dream Well

Comments

Screw this noise...

[karishi.livejournal.com]

Nah, this reply isn't to what you say here. It's to the whole fsking thing. It's to you leaving, which is drawing the same reaction as when you smoke in front of me: Disgust, pity, and severe annoyance.
I'm disgusted by the smoke because of its impurity. I'm disgusted by your blaming of the stagnation on the location, because of ITS impurity.
I pity you because I know what it'll do to you: Kill you, slowly, unnoticeably at first; but right there, right at the end, pain will set in and stay and eat until there's nothing left of you.
And I'm severely annoyed. You're saying you hate the whole suicide thing. To my mind, the speed of the suicide doesn't matter. You can fix the stagnation, if you show the strength of your birthright. Mundanity, on the other hand, sits there and teaches you how to make crumpets. And kills you. Slowly.

I'm sure I was supposed to be supportive of whatever decision you made. I'm sure you made up your mind, and all I'm doing is pissing you off when you really don't need all this shit from people you thought were friends.

Cope. You're my friend, I want you to stay where I can TALK to you. I want you to be there, I want to see you clawing your way out of your stagnant hole and kicking all your problems' respective asses, even if I'm one of them. What I don't want to see is you running away from a problem. If you need to be with your family, that's one thing. But if you want a change of pace, MAKE a change of pace and don't leave everybody behind to do it. Take up crochet, or basketry, or perhaps metalworking. What the hell ever it takes. Get a habit. Mine's writing a few pages a day, but your inspiration seems to come in more flashbulb-y effect, and so doesn't work as something to do every day. But do SOMETHING every day.
Except smoke. Smoking is bad for you. :p
ANYway, point being, don't go elsewhere. You're loved and needed and all that sappy junk, right here. And sometimes your paranoid self refuses to see all the happy huggy hands, (I would, too...*shudder*) but we do wuv...I mean Love you.

Re: Screw this noise...

[wolven.livejournal.com]

Yes yes yes. It's all understood. As to the smoking thing... Work. That's all i can really think of to say there. You know i've made my decision. No worries, there.

Now stop yelling at me, before i have to give you nightmares. :P

Re: Screw this noise...

[wolven.livejournal.com]

P.S. I don't blame the locality. I merely note the significance. The first person i met, here, was Jacosa Kato. That's ONE DEGREE of separation. The city wanted me. It would have happened, anywhere, at that given tyme. I know that. But The City definately wanted me. There's no denying that.