Dreams: Neuro, Severed Head, EHC {and welcomes}

Carmina Burana - [Fortune Plango Vulnera]--- Dreams of Neuromancer Molly. working with me to get a cab somewhere, but the place was a time period, and the whole thing ended up having to be resolved in violence, upon the cabbie. (Voltaire - [Out of Reach]). I remember watching Molly work, and her teaching me many things about proper distribution of force.

Somewhere after that, there was a severed head and spinal column, with tiny legs, just below the medula oblongata. It ran that way, and ran along it's own spinal column. Not in a circle. The ground under it was it's own back, much larger.

Something about a comics store, and friends.

Next fully remembered section about going to the movies, to see something greatly anticipated, but barely remembered. Something about Hell, and Demons, and the Apocalypse. Leaving the theater, i realised that i forgot my hat, and that I should get it. Only I couldn't fully rememeber if it forgot it in the theater, or with Molly, so my search was weird. (OhGr - [maJiK]). I found a hat, and put it on, but it was flimsier than my hat and, when I got out into the lobby, I realised that this hat was blue, and filthy. I set the hat down and I went back into the theater, and searched some more, but, as I was searching, I realised that the hat was still on my head, and the credits were rolling, and one of the songs from The Electric Hellfire Club's new album, was on the credits, only it was also a cover of "Sympathy fo the Devil," which EHC has never done, so far as I know. (Moxy Früvous - [Organ Grinder]). I searched around, some more, and realised that I was wearing someone else's hat, that the people in the theater didn't want me there, and were afraid of what I was going to do, and then remembered that I didn't bring my hat to the movies. It was too warm, for that.

Dreams are great, aren't they?

Today, I'm going to go down to campus pick up my papers and test, and then come home, and watch many things on the television.this is my plan, and I feel that it is a solid one.

In there i will try not to yell at anyone with whom I come in contact, after receiving a certain paper back. (The Dresden Dolls - [Girl Anachronism (Live)]). It's not their fault.

Anywho, i'm off.

{11.01am: House of Pain - [Top O' The Morning To Ya]--- Tangentially, a warm welcome to (alphabetically) anarchette, figment128, and selenasaberwind. Also to bluesummers, and shutterbox, and to anyone else i've forgotten, I'm sorry. (Pain - [Umbrella]).

Off to the food mines. That's where you mine food.}

{{7.33pm: Cole Porter & Vivian Green - [Love for Sale]--- Another section of dream was about construction being done on the house, next door, but also on This house. The work done on this house was also rebuilding reality.

That, however, made me think about thefact that any construction is construction of reality... Hm.}}

I'd like to express my... Is "umbrage" the word I want to use here? ("you'll never understand")

Mindless Self Indulgence - [Faggot]--- Do you know what I truly and completely despise? People who get off on making themselves feel speical, via the exclusion of others. (Interpol - [Evil]). This can come in any number of ways, really, and all of them bother the living shit out me. "You can't join our club, because you're not..." "You can't be my friend, if you won't..." "You'll never understand, because you don't..." Fuck you. Fuck. You. And your specialised, elitist, significanatly downtrodden Bullshit.

It bothers the hell out of me that we have Black History Month. Women's History Month. Native American History Month. It pisses me off that people feel the need to be so oppressed, so downtrodeen, so special, as to want to exclude other people from knowing them as actual human beings, and acatually go so far as to make that exclusion a part of whatever group to which they happen to belong. (Deadsy - [Winners]). You are different. No shit, asshole. We're all different. You're no different than anyone else, then, are you? And that's the key.

Everyone has something special and awesome about them, that sets them apart. Everyone. That's the best part, though. There will always be groups of people who cluster together, to hide from the frightening sea of interchangable difference and diversity. Whatever. It's not necessary. You don't need to huddle up, around people who are enough like you, but are different enough to make it bearable, but by God, don't you just want them to shut up, so that you can tell them howthey'll never understand Your special and unique brand of Hell on Earth? You don't need them.

KMFDM - [These Boots Are Made For Walkin' (Nancy Sinatra Cover)]--- Everyone needs friends. Everyone needs people with whom they can connect, and people with whom they can talk about their problems. But telling anyone who's not like you, at first glance, that they'll never understand you, that they'll never get what you get, isn't helping your stated cause. Unless, of course, you're only in it to be exclusionary. And if that's you, then you're not here to learn, at all, and you can go right to Hell.

Danger Doom - [Basket Case]--- I hate the specialised months, because it shows that we haven't learned a damned thing. We're still segfregating, still making things separate and different. How weak is that?

"Specialization is for insects." - Robert A. Heinlein, "Time Enough for Love"

Alan Moore - [March of the Sinister Ducks]--- On a completely unrelated not, I ran into fushi, downtown, today. She seemed to be doing well.

Last night, at electroncat's birthday party, momentai gave mech_angel and I our holiday presents, due to our not-being-in-town-ness, this weekend. They were awesome. A report of them, after the holidays.

Time to go read comments on papers.

Estimated totals, with A- at 90-92, B+ at 88-89, and so on.

91- 30% =27.3 (Critical Response Mean Average)
91- 10% = 9.1 (Peer Review Grade)
71- 60% = 42.6 (Final Paper Grade)

Ben Folds Five - [Underground]--- We didn't get a single number grade, for the course, so I've had to guesstimate numbers. So, add it all up and it's a 79 for the course, and the grade written on the paper wasn't a C+, so it had to be even lower than that, on the scale, for the paper. *sigh*

Honestly, breaking it down logically and understanding how it all fell into place always helps me accept the grades, if not the rationale behind them.

KMFDM - [R.U.OK?]--- Ah well. More comment reading, now that i've calmed myself, with math... Guh

What t he hell is wrong with me?